Home is Where the Heart is

Just read on facebook. So sorry to hear that.

Take care, and my condolences.

Remember, you still have your friends who are rooting for you. Stay strong.

Just got my results of where I'll be going next year. As of now, its Queen's Belfast University in nothern ireland.

Tentatively, i'll be leaving in September. That's 9 months for me to rot while waiting to fly over there. Considering of sitting for USMLE now, taking my grade 8 piano exam, sitting for my electone examination AND going for my violin examination. Haha. But i'll HAVE to pick up something medically related in the mean time right? I mean...duh.

Well...Belfast wasn't exactly my top choice but after a whole afternoon and evening of moping, I've decided to look at the bright side. Ah well, at least I'll be able to leave and see the world right? Most people don't even get the chance.

So here I am, wishing to tell all my friends...Thanks for sticking with me though all this time; whether its during primary, secondary school, college or uni. Thanks so much guys, you've made me into who I am right now :)

I'll miss you guys.

I make it sound like i'm leaving tomorrow o.o

Means family. Family means no one gets left behind.

Awww, how much I love that concept.
So...what does family mean to you? By growing up, I've learned that everyone comes from different family backgrounds.

Broken families.

Perfect families.

Families that aren't really families afterall.

Families that are just oh-so superficial.

Families that are rich.

Families that aren't that well off.

You get the gist of it. Everyone comes from different backgrounds. So tell me, would you agree if I said that your family influences a huge amount of how you'll turn out to be? Like, how anal you can be, how nice you can be, how friendly you can be. You get the drift. Rich kids tend to spend more. Haha. Sorry if I've offended you ting yu :p But the thing I can't stand the most is that, the rich kids start being all snobbish and stuff, and start looking down on people who aren't that well off. I mean...seriously? What the heck is your problem? Looks like the saying, birds of a feather flock together holds.

I've seen how "friends" of mine can just backstab me with no care in the world. I've also seen true friends who stick with me through whatever difficulties I have; regardless of how I've, embarassingly, abandoned them for at least 1 year plus. I'm so glad that these friends have welcomed me back with open arms, and what's more, we've become way much closer thanks to that.

I would say that my life revolves around my friends. I wouldn't say that I come from a perfect family. Something happened sometime ago and before I knew it, its just something that can no longer be patched up anymore.

Well, glad to say things aren't that bad but...sometimes I wish it could be better you know?
Family aside, I even have friends who treat me as family, friends who treat me as a friend, and friends who hate my guts in and out.

Which category do you fall under?

Oh. Not to mention, friends whom I thought were friends. haha.

So, 'fess up. Look deep into yourself. How much does this person mean to you, and in turn, how much do YOU mean to him/her?

So, do you think bullying is fun?

Bullying can be classified under many different categories. Verbal bullying, physical bullying, cyber bullying...etc.
Back when I was in primary school, I was often bullied by the guys in my class. Doesn't help that the girls whom I thought were my friends didn't stand up for me either. I still remember, confiding to another friend about it. She just shrugged it off and told me she'd help later. Apparently two friends playing was a lot more interesting than helping me.

The bully stole my stuff which when I recall, is really heartbreaking. Looking back, I feel pathetic and weak. Right now, I just feel anger. Why the hell did I not do something? My parents were struggling with work back then and I didn't want to burden them anymore so I didn't tell them a thing.

Right now, I just feel like using them as a punching bag. But to me, betrayal and ignorance is the worse kind of bullying. Betrayal, meaning you pretend to befriend the person in order to use that information against him/her. Ignorance meaning you befriend that person, get close to him/her, then start to ignore him/her. How would you feel? It freaking hurts dammit. It hurts really bad.

I just wish I can scream really really loud. Sometimes, human beings itself really disappoint me. I just wanna shout a string of curses, use something as a punching bag, and go back to studying right now.

Do you have any freaking idea how does the victim feel? Do you have any !$%@ idea?

Ok. Anger dissipated. Study time.

This makes my 200th post on this blog. Take care, and all the best to those who are facing exams soon.

And for those who are down in the dumps and feel really helpless...Know that I'm just a phone call away, or a fb msg away. You talk, I'll listen. Ok?

This "theme" was borrowed from tingyu. Haha.

So...WHY do I blog? I'd say initially I started blogging because it was the "in" thing to do. I'm sure quite a few of us here started blogging because of that. Looking at all my old posts from my previous blogs, I'm beginning to feel that, wth? I was THAT immature? Haha.

In fact, I just thought about it. My blogs now serve as a reminder of how childish I once was, and how much I've grown up over the years.

But I digress. Once I reached my college years, my blog was just a way of keeping my friends informed of what I was doing and so on. But then again, it seemed like I was really snobbish in college. Forgive me my friends for neglecting you.

Now its just a way of expressing my feelings every now and then. Random outbursts, random thoughts, random stuff...you get the gist of it. Well, blogs are a failure now. Kinda. Not everyone blogs anymore but I guess that's because life is in the way.

So yea.

And speaking of which, which part of your schooling life do you prefer? Or should I be more specific, which part would you wanna relive? Primary? Secondary? College? Uni?

I would rather relive my secondary school years. Primary was never any fun for me. Just a little but looking back, I'd rather not. College was ok for me to but if I were given the chance to relive my college years, I would be a little more boisterous and noisy. *Yes I know i'm noisy but you know what I mean*

Secondary school is where I meet my best friends. So much so that I consider some of them my sisters.

Primary school is where I hate bullies.

College is when I realized that I really hate physics. But only because I was bad in it and the fact I did not understand a single thing being thought did NOT help.

Done and done. I'm going to bed now. Sleepy :(

Just went for a concert :D

ADAM LAMBERT'S!

WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO! IT WAS AWESOME XD
First concert, last minute decision and all the randomness that was chucked into it. The feeling was awesome.
Even managed to find out who are Lambert's fans :D

Right. Time to sleep.

Already figured out my new blog url. Shall be moving and setting it up soon :)

Aaaaaand, I shall give you guys a clue on my new url, cuz i'm not gonna announce it.

It's the same as my fanfiction ID.

Oh you want another clue? haha.

Its 2 words joined together. The first word is what I put as my phone bluetooth name for some time. Its the same word for light in japanese.

The 2nd word will be a little harder. Its a "group name" back when I was in secondary school.

I've set up the url as it is...so...happy guessing :)

P.S I will eventually post up the name of my blog. Just wanna...keep it mysterious...*spooky music plays*

P.P.S I think the blog will only be up and running in december xD