Home is Where the Heart is

I forgot to post Sarah's birthday post >< So...i'll just post a quick one. She'll be too tired to know anyway. *hint* She works till 11pm xD.

Aaaanyway, this girl is one who gives a first impression of being the gangster...the bad girl...the girl with the 'I wanna kill somebody' look.

Until you know her... As much as she ALWAYS claims to be a good girl...*hi 5's Dianne*
I guess sometimes you just really gotta know the person before you judge the person huh?


I dunno why I have so many pictures with only the both of you >_>

Heeee~ This pic is for Dianne =P

Happy belated birthday! Your birthday passed yesterday with you working xD

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The next bit is just so hilarious it HAS to be up.
I know its mean but I just can't help it.

See...I was studying...*shudder*
And I got so sick of it that I went downstairs to watch some TV.
And I was watching.....Spongebob >_>

THEN....My grandfather asked me to fetch him to a nearby clinic and asked me to change and take my IC and stuff.

After changing and stuff, he told me he has constipation and its very...er... what's 'san fu' in english anyway...
Er...not feeling well? I think?

So I fetched him and the doctor prescribed some medicine after he explained that he was constipated since this morning.

When we went home, he took the medicine. Which I found out...
is just good ol' nutritious vitamin C.

Yup fellow IMU and Monash students. My grandfather was given a placebo.
Kinda hilarious really. Because, I think he went to the toilet after eating it. Its all the mind huh.

When I was making my lunch = instant soup + biscuits,
my maid told me he has been eating a lot of asam.
Like...ENAM biji of it.

My maid also told me that he buys TWENTY apples in one day.
And finishes it in TWO days.

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OF COURSE LA!
Then my grandma happily added on. For breakfast, he drinks coffee and eats a few pieces of bread. Like...a lot of it >_> Half a loaf? --"

Note: Excess carbs gives u GI irritation.
I REMEMBERED WHAT I READ!! =D

Then, before lunch he eats apples, papayas and bananas. We grow papayas and its the fruiting time for all my papaya trees now. He ALWAYS buys bananas.
Besides bananas, he also eats oranges.

Then lunch time. My grandma usually serves rice, with leftovers. If there aren't any she'll just whip up a vege dish and a meat dish.

After that, PLUS soup, he'll rest for a while.
Not before eating more oranges >_> Its a habit of his since I was young.

TEA TIME. He makes a cup of Milo and more bread.

In between that and dinner he eats more....apples I think. I don't really go down to observe anymore.

Then dinner. After dinner, its more fruits. Last night, with a slice of mango.

Oh gosh. Do all guys eat that much? I feel full just thinking and typing about it.

My grandma and maid are mean. I know.
Haha!

On a totally random note, I just fed Rocky and Almond cheese!!

Mmm....cheese....

As Yee Wen said in my cbox, No point dwelling in the past. Time to pull it together and get a move on. Its the present and future that counts. The past is but a memory, something that we are built upon, something that must be taken into account and learned from.
But the most important thing is to remember our mistakes in the past so that we will never repeat it again.

I've learned a valuable lesson this time round and will just move on. These few days has given me a lot of time to think upon and reflect. As a 'wise' friend once said to me, you will always wish you could live in the past. Back when everything was so easygoing and all fun and games...
But there will always be a time when you need to leave everything behind and just move on with your life.

Going to different places....meeting different people...learning different stuff. Look how much we've separated by now? When I was in lower primary, I used to hang with Carol. In standard 5, that didn't happen because everyone else was in standard 4 when I skipped std 4. They met different friends and I met different people. I met Carr Men. Then in std 6, I met Xiao Foong.

In lower secondary, I met Dianne, Sarah, Steph and a few others.
In upper secondary, I met Yee Wen, Lai Mun, Tsing, Mel, Yan Leng and many more.
In Taylor's I met the whole of PM4.

And now in IMU, I'll meet with a whole different set of people.

But in the process, I've lost many other friends. I barely speak to Carr Men. Its been ages since I last met Carol face to face. Dianne and Pui Man are virtually out of reach without technology.

And that's gonna just become worse.
Soon, everyone will start leaving me one at a time. Next will be Yee Wen. Then Sarah. Then more of those who are going overseas.
Then all my friends in IMU will leave for separate universities.

Life's tough huh?

But we need to move on.

And so...with these memories that I've imprinted on this last post, I shall now seal all these memories, happy and sad alike, deep in my heart and memory. No more brooding on the past.

Watch out world, here I come!

Its kinda embarrassing HOW and with WHAT did i burn myself.
HAHA.

The only person who knows about this is Sarah...And her mum...And Coco...and Tiger.
And Rachel, Sarah's sister.

At least it healed up already. ><

Right. I wanted to emo in this post but since its someone's birthday...gotta write a happy post otherwise she might just make fun of me for being emo >_>

Say a big, huge, gigantic HAPPY BIRTHDAY to...

Non other than...

STIFFENIE!!! =D

...Er...I mean...

STEPHANIE!! =D

Sorry steph, old habits die hard =P

Aaaaanyways, here's a glamorous photo of her!
Picture courtesy of Sarah Tan, who spent hours attaching the pictures to the e-mail =P

Sedaaaaap! Haha. This was taken so long ago. Right Steph? *sigh* Memories ><
We were having a BBQ in front of Sarah's house.

Here are MORE glamorous pictures taken of her XD

This one was after our PMR thingimajiggy. Haha. I look retarded >_>


Actually...cut that. I look even more retarded here! HOLLY SCHMOLLY! My hair looks....What's worse than ugly? ><
I still say my hair looks ugly. WHAT WAS I THINKING!! D=

Oh well. Haha. Here you see my...kinda current hairstyle =D
This is the most recent pic of her. So...

Happy Birthday Stephieeeee! =D
Er...present hutang dulu. Haha!

I feel so tired, heavy and sad all at the same time.
Waking up at 7am everyday, dragging myself off from bed every morning, driving alone to IMU everyday, going up to the library and study every day, hoping to hang out everyday but my hopes get dashed each day...

The list is endless.
You know...I just realized that if you're not happy, you won't feel full no matter how much you eat...you'll never feel light. You'll always feel down....sad.... and feel like you have the whole world's weight on your shoulder all the time.

You just feel like giving up, you just feel like ending everything with just one stupid mistake.
You feel like just going to sleep knowing that you have to rush everything in an unreasonable timing.
You feel like voicing out and crying in front of everybody.

But you know you will never be able to do that.
You will never be able to scream your feelings out, letting the other person know that you've been treated unjustly.
To know that all you wanna do is just enjoy each others company.

But what do you get?

Time after time, disappointment wells up deep down.
Time after time, tears that threaten to fall are held back.
Time after time...

I wonder, would I be treated differently if I were a total different person?
Would I then, be treated the same as you've treated that particular person?
Would I....

Be finally given a nod at, given some consideration, not abandoned, always in your company?
Would I finally...

Get to spend time with you?

NUUUUUU!!

T____T

Only done with immunology and haflway through pathology.
And since I couldn't understand what the crap the lecturers are trying to tell me in pathology, I've decided to just go straight to microbiology and parasitology.

@_@
BUT IMMUNOLOGY WAS THE EASY PART!

*sigh* Studied in the library more or less since 2 plus till approx 4 plus before moving to the other section of the library to study some more until about 5pm. Then I printed notes till 5.30pm.

T______________________________T

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On the positive side, Vienna's back! =D
Haha! Can you see what did Vienna type?

Imagine this....its dark...at night...suddenly you hear some weird woman's call...
'Fan lei.........pei li........fan lei lo!!!!......FAN LEI LO!!!!!'
*BOO!*

Haha! Pei Li fan lei lo! =P

Hope this cheered you up Ca Men =)

I was feeling rather down 2 days ago. Which would be after I typed the previous post. So instead of studying I went on MSN instead. I'm glad I did. Thanks Ca Men for cheering me up and listening to my problems =D

Of course, after the serious stuff was over, Ca Men discovered the joys of drawing on MSN >_>

In case its too small for you to see, that stick man thingi is hers. I have no idea what that blob is supposed to be. I know. That butterfly thing is ugly. Some of you might go...'That was a butterfly? HAHAHAHAHAHA!' T_T
T_T After I called her a pink pig she called me poop! T_T
Ehehe. Oops >_> Maybe that's why she drew an ugly self portrait of me. I've gotta admit though, its nicer than mine. Mine's too kindergarten-ish.
Picasso style. Nice rite?

Look! Up in the sky! Is it a plane? Is it superman? NO! ITS A BIRD!
Bird? Not duck meh? xD

Do you know what makes me stressed now?

No...its not the exmas (surprisingly...)
No...its not PBL
No...its not the freaky people who sleep at 4am just to study
No...its not the bunch of insomniacs who haunt the library without fail just to study from 8am till 9.30pm.

Its the people who recite without fail the long list of microbes, viruses and parasites that haunt our earth.

I know you guys studied. Let me have my peace for lunch please ><

Sorry I walked out on you guys, E Li, Guan Teck and Esther.
I am stressed. Not by not studying, by hearing you guys repeat.
I'm not stressed when you guys are studying.
Just hearing you guys repeat.

.......

And contrary to popular belief, I'm not the kind who will skip EVERY lecture. As quoted by two people >_>

RAWR. Plus the fact that I got my Hep B booster shot today doesn't help. My poor forearm T.T

HELLOOOO??? DIDN'T ONE OF YOU DO ANYTHING FOR APRIL FOOL'S DAY??
TELL ME!!! D=

Fine. Don't tell me then. *sulks in a corner*

Food poisoning + Pain on my arm = tired and crank PL

T.T

Ah well. Today's visit wasn't THAT bad. At least we had good lunch =)

Maybe THAT'S the cause of my food poisoning >_>

2.4.09

The things some people do >_>

Guys out there, always trust your girl. She'd never do anything to harm you. Well...the majority of cases anyway >_>
What i'm trying to say is...don't ever listen to someone's story alone. ALWAYS ask for more details from her. What if the message is only halfway through? Let her, and give her time to explain. You can't just jump to conclusions based on someone's incomplete sms right?

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Gah, dead tired now. Went for nursing week in Seremban hospital. Zzzzzzz. Haha.
Kinda ok but really hot D=
Slept for about...i have no idea what time till E Li woke me up at 5 for millers ><

Jogged, drove home, had dinner and am still online. Gosh, I need to bathe and its akready 10.45pm. I still have to wake up at 5.55am as today.

T____T

So, what did you do today? April fool's day? Do tell me. I wanna know =)

1.4.2009