Home is Where the Heart is

edit: Listen to the new song I put up! Its kinda soothing and nice~ *dreamy eyes*

Ok technically its the next day already >_>
My internet is slooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow T.T

I've also just realized that...I've changed. For better or worse, you decide. Throughout our journey Steph and Yee Wen have been asking me to lighten and loosen up. Am I becoming too...I dunno...Uptight?? ><><>< d=" Haha." vien ="P" d=" SARS!!!!" d=" Haha.">_>
Li Hoong is ALWAYS studying. Li Zhen is always with Eu Jhin....Aaaaaaaand...
Me am lonely =( Haha! No la. Joking joking. I'm surrounded by crazy people who study D=
Well...technically i'm supposed to be like them.... *shifty eyes*
And since I'm only usually with E Li during lectures since the rest of the time she spends it with *cough cough COUGH COUGH* D= PAROXYSMAL COUGH!!! RUUUUUUN!!!

Haha. Anyway, you can say that I'm out of practice. To Dianne and Sarah. Notice that I don't manja that much anymore?....Yea...Steph WAS too uptight to me then xD What a stark diff eh Steph?

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I'll post your glamorous picture ASAP k? You know....the one with you eating....

HAHA! =P

ME WANT YOUR ANIME!!!! D=
YOURS TOO YEE WEN!!!! D=

Can you give me your whole laptop/hard disk/computer hard drive instead? *puppy dog eyes*

31.3.2009

Everyone has to be tolerant. You can be ok with everyone. Nor can you get along with everyone without tolerance.
There has to be SOMETHING that irks you about everyone right? Take me for example. People are extremely tolerant when i'm procrastinating, late for a meeting [my worst quality] and when I disturb people for the heck of it. If you can't tolerate at least these, you'll come to argue and hate me for life. See the connection?

How about your neighbour? I miss my old neighbours =(
They were nice and their kids grew up with me. Now that we've moved, our neighbours are...
Lets put it this way, they're everything I go against.

Want me to tell you what they actually call us? Let's get to the scenario first.
My dogs....bark. --" Well DUH! My dogs aren't exactly noisy, nor do they bark unnecessarily..To show that we're doing something, we first muzzled Almond for the night. Mind you, we take it off in the morning. I mean, its kinda pointless if we muzzled both Almond AND Rocky right? --"

Next, my bro and I...play the piano...And THAT is another agenda they're using against us.
WOW. I didn't know playing the piano includes that. Its not like my bro and I simply play or just randomly press notes --" We practice and play!! And trust me, my bro plays nice music. Not linkin park or anything. WTF? Now they wanna sue us for PLAYING THE PIANO?? >_>

Besides that, they smsed my mum calling us uneducated --" Fuiyo...when my mum said that, I lost sight of all reason. Heck, you can call me uneducated but you're insulting my whole family goddammit.
Apparently we're sooooo UNEDUCATED we actually turn off our lights for earth hour. THEY are so EDUCATED they just left their lights on. Hmmm....maybe only uneducated people actually care for the earth.

Lets see...back when we first moved in, they told my mum not to fence up the wall or something like that. Now, when you read this, you must be thinking 'Maybe there's still hope for them! They're trying to be good neighbours by asking you not to fence up!'.
Tch. Yea right. The reason? So that it won't be so hot >_> You know, hot air is trapped there or some scientific shit. My mum said, let's put up plates of zinc like the uneducated people we are.

Aaaaaaand guess what? Being the 'educated' people that they are, they actually throw stones at both Rocky and Almond! And we were wondering why does Rocky and Almond bark so much! ITS BECAUSE OF THEM DAMMIT!

.......Gosh I'm just so pissed at them right now --"

30.3.2009

You know who you are --"

YOU OWE ME DINNER!!! D=

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Anyways, one of my juniors, just thought of something. A medical joke. Shalini came up with it.

We were commenting on how Guan Teck keeps insulting himself. Haha.
As quoted by Shalini.

'ya lor..uses self destructive phrases...must have been a lysosome in his last birth..'

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

21.3.2009

I feel extremely hopeless now.
I feel powerless, depressed and angry all at once.

Feeling so many negative emotions at once is putting a strain on my heart, mentality and sanity.
I am always tired....by tired I don't mean it physically. I'm just always so emotionally and mentally drained that I can't think clearly or express myself properly.

Somehow...it always comes out the opposite.
Dianne's right. We all have 'barriers' whereby we filter our words before expressing it. Guess i'm not that nice a person afterall.

I'm just that mean, ruthless and spiteful person.

How I miss the good old days....when I didn't have a care for the world at all.
I miss it all....

18.3.2009

*sob sob*
What am I to do?

*sob sob*

This is how I started my Friday.

Got pissed over a lot of nonsensical things. [eg: CPR!!, and the WAVES week --", and the freaking t-shirt design!]

Was ridiculously tired after everything t.t

Drove home and was stuck in a jam.

Went home and went straight to my bed.

Turn on the radio with soothing music plus a storybook.

Slept. Didn't eat dinner and slept all the way till 4am where I replied everyone's smses. Haha.

Woke up around 7.45am when Yee Wen called just to find out I was late! T_T
Rushed to pick her up and drove to Sunway college to attend Sarah's cupcake workshop that she organised xD

Spent the whole day with Yee Wen and Sarah in pyramid after the whole thing was over.
Reached home about 7pm and went out to Carrefour to make my bro's specs. HE STEPPED ON IT O.o

Steph called to confirm about MV the next day. Couldn't go because I spent the whole day out d t.t

Went home and went online till 1am.

Sunday was kinda a whole day out with my parents. Ate nasi briyani and picked up my bro's specs. Haha.

Sorry I couldn't go out with you Lai Mun t.t
I promise i'll try to make it for the next outing k? =D

Btw, can anyone recommend me a nice song to play? I'm tired of playing the same old songs and would like to try out some nice ones =)

Pics and vids will be up soon. I'll try t.t

WARNING: IF YOU HATE WHINERS, GO AWAY.




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Gah, what with drivers who never let the 'P-pai' pass, increasing workloads, smart-ass politicians, embarrassing arses, lousy friends, weird and hard-to-work-with leaders

AND

the increase in the amount of meet-ups with old friends...

it was hectic and tiring enough.

NOW, I have my CPR resit to worry about. Yes i'm complaining. Yes, i'm a whiner.

SO WHAT.

I demand a remark if I actually know how.
And I won't give a damn about this resit at all. To hell if I fail again.
I won't study for this resit and see if the rumours are true. The rumours being they purposely fail random people to make them resit.
Apparently its impossible to fail because they give you the answers.

Bloody hell...if this is true...THEN WHY DON'T YOU JUST FREAKING TELL ME YOU'RE GONNA FAIL ME IN THE BEGINNING? Wtf --"

BEFORE I sat for the original test?
I'll bloody give you your 40 bucks and just take the resit straight away --"

I have a few theories on who they pick.
1. International students [quite a few of them failed]
2. The last few numbers of the student ID [Which is kinda true. A huge cluster is there]
3. People who came out early and last few ones. Randomly.
4. People who just fail.
5. Its just freaking random la k?

Wutever --"
I'm so --" that i'm pissed already. The more I think about it the more pissed I get.
I was calm during lunch but thanks a lot Kevin Kwan --"

I'm so freaking pissed that I couldn't even concentrate in PBL.

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Glad THAT'S out of my system. I'm taking of making another blog for more privacy. I'll post up rantings and more rantings in the private one while this one will be reserved more less...angsty stuff.

This is going to be a looooooong post. Last night, I met up with Steph, Tsing and Yee Wen. Yan Leng FFK-ed us --"
Didn't even pick up the phone and when Steph tried to call...

'The number you have dialled is out of coverage. Please try again. Thank you'
Steph: 'Apa ni...out of coverage....she go underground isit?'

MWAHAHAHA. Close-up =P

Yee Wen playing with her phone while we were battling it out. By we I mean Steph, Tsing and I.
Bwahahahaha! Tsing was last =P Yellow was Yee Wen, blue was steph, red was mine.
Haha. Hello Tsing. Quote of the day. By Pei Li.
'The reason why Tsing chose green was so that she can blend in with the board and hide from shame.'
So ngam rite? We each rolled a dice on our first turns and got this. Haha.


'Hmm....'
Yee Wen looks happy...
*wipes a tear*
Taking pictures of Tsing losing.
'Sei lor....'

Starting the game with enthusiasm
'Crap....MUST.BEAT.SING.YEE.WEN...'


When Tsing went down the snake part 1


When Tsing went down the snake part 2


When Tsing went down the snake part 3

She went down the snake more than this actually but we were so high we managed to record it. Haha!

Enjoy the ending of my angry post

I've failed my CPR T.T
Resit is freaking 40 bucks..
People are YET to pay me.
My leader isn't very responsible.
Lectures are freaking hard.

I'm stressed ><

12.3.2009

Went MV today for Jia's early bday celebration! Sry I couldn't make it to your hse Jia =(
I made it up to you by wearing a skirt d. haha! E LI DIDN'T FOLLOW THE DRESS CODE!!! D=

All the girls. The guys pics are on fb.
Its been ages since I last saw Ca Men t.t
I wanted to put my palm in front of E Li's face when the pic was taken but I didn't know where was her face. Haha!

Pics are courtesy of Miss Chung =D
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Btw, good luck to those who are taking their STPM results tomorrow. You guys can do it! =D

And remember to let me know and belanja me makan tomorrow. Haha!

=D
9.3.2009

edit: I just realized that if I don't mention it somewhere, i'm going to forget.

Tomorrow: not free =\
Saturday: Going for Sarah's class for baking thing. Anyone wanna follow? Its for charity. Just sms me or drop a note in my cbox. Its gonna be in Sunway college.
Sunday: Promised to go out with Tsing, Lemon and Yan Leng I think. YEE WEN!! MANA LU T.T

Somewhere in the near distant future: Tsing's mythical creature costume party. I'm taking the leprechaun! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

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This one was from Thursday's lecture.
Our lecturer was talking about infarctions and he was using a remote control to change the slides.

Suddenly..nothing happened. Despite the pressing of the buttons. Haha.

'The battery has infarcted'

O.o...
Haha. Next time there are more medical jokes, I'll post them up. As of now, this is the only one I can remember.

8.3.2009

edit: I'VE FIXED THE COLOR!! =D

i am not: a mean person. I'm nice ok!!! WHY IS THAT SO HARD TO BELIEVE!!! D=
i hurt: badly even though some people dismiss it as something minor.
i love: reading story books!
i fear: losing my friends
i hope: to have a happy future with my loved ones
i hear: my own fears
i cry: when I can no longer suppress the pain
i care: about the underprivileged.
i always: worry
i long to: go on a long vacation
i listen: to my surroundings
i hide: from pain and suffering
i drive: relatively safe.
i sing: when i'm alone.
i dance: like I have two left feet.
i write: for fun
i breathe: shallowly as an effect of childhood asthma
i play: a lot but try to control myself.
i miss: the times when I was young and I didn't need to care about a lot of stuff.
i search: elusively for paradise.
i learn: by watching, listening and asking.
i feel: very sick now ><
i know: that I'm a coward.
i succeed: when I'm not lazy
i fail: at not procrastinating.
i dream: of having a happy life
i sleep: peacefully if there's minimum noise.
i wonder: why people are so into gossip sometimes.
i want: to never grow up.
i worry: about unnecessary things.
i have: few but very very good friends =)
i give: and don't expect anything in return
i fight: when I feel that things are unfair.
i wait: forever
i need: to try and run away from my cousin right now.
i am: too free spirited to be doing a desk job
i think: I'm overly in love with my penguin toys =P
i can't help the fact that: I always need a friend with me at all times.
i stay: and remain happy when I'm surrounded by people. As if friends people. Not random people people.
i will: follow you~~~ I mean...I will try and do my very best from now on!
i should: go bathe and have dinner before I fall sick again --"
i tag:

Tsing Yie
Yee Wen
Stephanie
Dianne
Melissa
E Li
Rahdika
See Wei
Yi Wen

Its...DRESS CODE I!!
We got the powerpuff girls and the song macho man. Kevin, Guan Teck and Eu Jihn were the doing macho man poses.Haha! Its hilarious! I'll try and upload it soon. No promises! =P
These pics were taken on the 2nd of March 2009.

This one was in the afternoon, during our signature hunt. Yes, its my juniors lying down there forming the words AK-7. Zhern Yung, just google harder. My friend DID find it ok!
Haha! An inside joke of our current orientation comittee president. During his orientation, he was the POTW- Prince Of The Wild. You see, during variety night, there are individual and group performances. The winner of the individual performances will become the president in organising the orientation when they're in sem 3. Our president was a swan, while our vice president was a peacock. We saw their performances on tape today. He made a damn graceful swan. Haha! And the peacock was elegant. Both were guys.

Our group. Don't play play wei. Guan Teck, Kevin and Eu Jihn did a lot of macho poses.

Can anyone guess who is this? I'll give you a clue. She studied in PM4, Taylor's, very feisty and her name starts with a R, ends with an A and rhymes with sardika.

Not obvious enough?
It also rhymes with bardika.
And cardika.
And zardika.
And Yadika.
And Kadika.

Oh c'mon.....
It also rhymes with Padika?
Tadika?
Haha!

Okok...if you can't guess it.
I can't help you anymore.

What will happen?
This question always scares me. We are all going our separate ways, getting to know different people, following our destinies, following different paths...

Yet we try so hard to maintain our past.

I am here to testify that, although it isn't impossible, it is impossible.

We can always make the extra effort to clear our timetables and make room for at least one day to hang out with old friends but we always come up with our own excuses.

'Cannot la....exam coming soon...'
'What if he/she is busy? Don't wanna disturb la =\'
'AHH!! SO MUCH STUFF TO DO!!! Sorry yea...I have stuff to finish'
'Eh? No transport...'
'Too late for me ><'
'Mum don't let wo...'

See? Exams are coming...so what? Will it kill you if you make the extra effort to spend just 30 minutes away from your books?
Your friend will always be free if he/she actually wants to see you.
Try not to procrastinate and you WILL have time to finish everything on time.
Transport probs are an old excuse.
Too late? Why not invite your friend over?
I'm sure if you explain properly to your mum, she will let you.

Then again, who am I to talk? I'm like a pot calling the kettle black.

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Other than that, I'm always thinking....' Did I make the right decision?'
Am I dedicated enough to not burn and crash later on?
Am I willing to spend so much time to become a doctor who has to work non-stop forever?
Will I be able to persevere throughout these 5-6 years?
Can I do it?

The answer? Well....I'm not so sure but...

Yes I can.

I can do it, I will not fail and I will succeed!

2.3.2009

OO stands for Orientation Officer in IMU. And I have found my true calling. Ceh. Haha.
It makes me happy to see the drastic change of my group. Day 1, they were so shy...and things were awkward. But after today's track trip, it has shown me that they have really opened up and have made firm friends with each other. It makes me so happy! Haha!

I also sounded like their mum today, having to look after them throughout the whole journey >_>

We had icebreakers on the 2nd day. Both dry and wet. Then, we had a indoor treasure hunt yesterday. Today, we had the outdoor treasure hunt from 8 am, and did the track trip to Pavillion at 3.30pm.

And I just got a sunburned face thanks to my stupidity of not putting sunblock ><

GO AK-7!!
Before. We look clean don't we =D

After. We look dirty don't we. HAHA! I may LOOK clean but I had butter on my hair, in my ears and red starch thingi on my shirt and hands. Haha. Guan Teck and Kevin got worse.

Before our track trip! =D Outside IMU after getting cleaned up.

In the LRT station, buying drinks from the vending machine. These guys have bought drinks from 3 vending machines. Haha!

We had loads of fun doing the chronosphere! Some ppl actually taped the whole thing >_>
I haven't uploaded it or anything but, if u wanna know what is it, check out youtube. Its when you pause while doing smth in the middle of nowhere. Haha. They had to do it for 5 minutes.

That's all for now! My feet are killing me X.X