Home is Where the Heart is

Can't think of anything to make the EPIC post so I shall now post up this tag, which was stolen from stephy's blog. Haha. Looked nice so I thought of doing it.

ABC Questions About You :

A - AVAILABLE : Yup. Of course there are these things called exams now t.t
B - BIRTHDAY : 8 August
C - CRUSHING ON : Hmmmm...who knows? xD
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD : Water
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO : People who I know are my friends and trust.
F - FAVORITE SONG : For now? A japanese song titled ボンゴレ VS ミルフィオーレ - ファミリー ～约束の场所～. Its a looooooong title xD
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS : Gummy Bears. Worms are a little too...uncute xD
H - HOMETOWN : KL/ Klang
I - IN LOVE WITH : My laptop. Its taking the stress of studying
J - JUGGLE : HAHAHAHA. Have you SEEN me juggle? xD
K - KILLED SOMEONE : Nope. For now >.<
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE : From Gunung Tahan and back. I slept and was trying to keep my friend awake.
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR : Choco! :D
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS : 1
O - ONE WISH : Who wants to know?
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST : Li Zhen
R- REASON TO SMILE : Knowing that I still have true friends despite everything that has happened to me :)
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD : おねむうた by Junko Takeuchi and Chiang Li Mei. Its a really cute song xD
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP : 11.45am. I off my alarm and went back to sleep :x
V - VEGETABLE(S) : Carrots!
W - WORST HABIT : Procrastination. Even now =="
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD : One for my braces
Y – YOYOS ARE : Something I could never do tricks on.
Z - ZODIAC SIGN : Leo.


Random Questions About You :

Spell your name without vowels : W N G P L. If you add my english name, L X S. Haha.
What colour do you wear most? : Black, White and Red. Like Po. Haha
What are you listening to? : Cosplay Party - Neeko
Are you happy with your life right now? : Not too bad.
What is your favorite class in school? : English, Maths and Add Maths.
When do you start back at school/college? : Er...Technically we're done with classes.
Are you outgoing? : Nope. I was worse back in high school though :p I still am, but not that bad
Favorite pair of shoes? : Gimme sneakers anyday
Where do you wish you were right now? : Lying down on my bed, listening to songs while reading a STORY BOOK t.t


THE CANS :

Can you dance? : Ahahahahaha. No.
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? : Heh? I'd like to try it out now xD
Can you whistle? : Yup. I can't click my fingers though :(
Write with both hands? : I wish.
Walk with your toes curled?: Yes. But sometimes my legs cramp up when i do that


THE DO'S :

Do you believe there is life on other planets? : You never know.
Do you believe in miracles? : Yes
Do you believe in magic? : No
Love at first sight? : Hmm...maybe?
Do you think there's a Satan? : Yes
Do you believe in Santa? : Nope. Never did
Do you know how to swim? : Can't float though. Haha
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? : I mean, if I were paid a lot of money then yes? Haha.

THE HAVE'S:

Have you ever been on a plane? : Yes.
Have you ever asked someone out? : Nope.
Have you ever been asked out by someone? : Yup
Have you ever been to the ocean? : Yea...one of the few things that I like. The ocean calms me down.
Have you ever painted your nails? : Yup. With pink. Haha. Cue people going, " WHAT??"

THE WHAT'S:

What is the temperature outside? : Cool I think. Its already midnite.
What radio station do you listen to? : Hitz, Fly, 104.9...I channel surf sometimes.
What was the last restaurant you ate at? : Er...JM Beriyani House or smth like that. Near Taylor's.
What was the last thing you bought? : Bookssss :D STORY BOOKS. Haha.
Who was the last person you took a picture of? : At TGI. Guan Teck's celebration.


CRYING SECTION :

Ever really cried your heart out? : Yea..Recently.
Ever cried yourself to sleep? : Yup. But quite some time ago.
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? : Ehehehe. I rarely cry in front of people to begin with.
Ever cried over the opposite sex? : Yes
Do you cry when you get an injury? : Only that one time where it was extremely painful. Haha
Do certain songs make you cry? : Yup. There was one but I forgot the title.


HAPPY SECTION :
Are you a happy person? : Most of the time, yup.
What can make you happy? : Being surrounded by my real friends. Not people who claim to be.
Do you wish you were happier? : Don't we all?
Can music make you happy? : Yup


LOVE SECTION :

How many times have you had your heart broken? : How many? :p Se-cr-et.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? : Who knows?

LOOK AT ME SECTION :

What is your current hair color? : Black.
Current piercings? : One on each ear *STEPHY! YOUR TURN*
Have any tattoos? : Want to. But...its unprofessional to get one :p
Eye color? : I wish it was blue. But its black.


In a man, (change it to the opposite sex when your answering this)

Favorite eye color : Unimportant.
Short or long hair : Haha. Short hair pls.
Height : Taller than me will do. Which shouldn't be that hard I guess. My bro calls me short ==
Best clothing : Anything.


HAVE YOU EVER :

Been to jail : Nope.
Mooned someone : HAHAHAHA. That'd be weird yet hilarious xD But no.
Thrown up in a store : Never.
Done something really stupid that you laugh at it till today : Ehehe. Yes? xD
Gone skinny dipping : No.


THIS OR THAT :

Pepsi or Coke : Coke.
McDonald's or Burger King : Burger king.
Single or Group Dates : Depends.
Chocolate or Vanilla : Chocolate. Everytime. Haha
Strawberries or Blueberries : Blueberries.
Meat or Veggies : Meat.
TV or Movie : Movie.
Guitar or Drums? : Electric Guitar. But I like drums too. *being greedy*
Adidas or Nike : Adidas.
Chinese or Mexican : Mexican.
Cheerios or Corn Flakes : Cheerios.
Cake or Pie : Pie!

Done! I'll er...procrastinate on the epic post and the hike once again xD

29th November 2009

I miss going to tuitions.
I miss stepping in the puddles.
I miss talking to my friends.
I miss not having to bother about major exams.
I miss writing essays.
I miss making close friends.
I miss hanging out.
I miss being called the human calculator.
I miss being asked "What is 3x3" only to not answer it.
I miss "manja"-ing my friends *cough cough* xD

I miss the BBQ we had. The grill is still kinda there :p

I miss going for piano classes.
I miss going for mental arithematic classes.
And I miss going for the competitions. Its the one time I feel really alive.

However....

I know that there's no point in dwelling in the past.
Memories are a way of holding on to things that I love, the things that were, and things that I never want to lose.

But someday, somehow, and somewhere, we have to learn to let it all go.
And my time is now.

These memories will always be in my heart.
Kept in a precious box and corner.
Always remembered, never forgotten.
It might bring a tear back every now and then...

But its time to really let it all go and move on.

Thanks guys, for giving me such precious memories to store into that box.
Thank you for giving me courage.

Thank you for making me who I am.

Thank you...

22nd November 2009

P.S The pics will be up. Soon xD I have them! :D

So....

As you guys know, or don't know, I hiked up Gunung Besar Hantu with 20+ Milers members.

It was a refreshing experience.

To be able to go on despite the pain, to be able to sleep through the pain, and to be able to tell myself, ' Just one last push Pei Li'.
Also, to be surrounded by people who helped encourage me and to physically help me all the way.

Thanks.

I've returned with scratches on my arms and hands, muscle aches everywhere, a hoarse voice, a twisted ankle, experience the signs and symptoms of hypothermia for myself, and the experience of hiking up and down slippery slopes.

To the rest of the Milers members who went, WELL DONE GUYS.
We did it! We climbed up all the way, *made fun of people who weren't there*, made phone calls and smses at the peak, and made it down.

Not to mention cross a river where after a heavy rain. We were praying all the way and all of us survived :)

Trust me. It was bad. Unfortunately the pics are with someone else's camera because I didn't take my camera up. I'll tag myself in fb for the pics, and steal some to post it here :)
I'll post those that I took with my friend's camera xD

17th November 2009

I've noticed that as we grow older, we tend to lose friends not because we fall out due to a fight, or because we realized that we suddenly hate each other or something.

Its because we're all too "busy" to take the time to communicate with each other. Hmmm...take for example.

Back when you're in primary school, you would always say, Hey, we'll be friends forever ya! Such naive thoughts. Because you know that the moment you don't end up in the same class even in primary school, or when you go to different secondary schools, you just don't....you know...become friends anymore. The next time you meet up, you might just feel awkward and you guys won't be laughing like close friends. Instead, you'll be thinking hard "What on earth do I say now?". That being said, you would also rarely come across each other as it is. Right?



Well now. You've then moved on to secondary school. And you've made new friends. I personally think that the bonds forged in secondary school would be stronger than those forged during our primary school years. Or it could just be referring to only me. As long as you don't end up changing classes every year, I'm sure you could make plenty, or at most, a few close friends. Then again, I'm just using my boring life as a template to my thoughts. Being a naturally quiet girl, yes, I AM quiet, I couldn't make many friends. Friends are something that isnt' easy for me to make. So shutup about me having few friends. I'd rather have 10 close friends than 500 friends whom I just occasionally talk to.

Then we move on to college. You make even more new friends. By now, your paths with your closer friends back in school might have differed. You would have preferred to be a lawyer, than say, a doctor, or, a politician. Or you would wanna be a teacher instead. Then, you'd be going off to different places for your tertiary education. Some would go to a private college/university, some would have gone to a local one. Others might have opt for form 6, or matriculation. And the rare few would have just proceeded to go overseas immediately.

This is when your bonds of friendship with your friends are trialed. Obviously if you haven't contacted your primary school friends even once then it'd be a miracle if you actually met each other. But keeping in contact with your secondary friends can be kinda hard if you have different schedules.

Then, you move on. After graduating from college you would have either completed everything and start looking for a job, or proceed to further your education; whether still local or overseas.
Either choices, you're getting further and further away from the people whom you once called your friends. And depending on whether you want to keep them or lose them, you would need to take the initiative.


Once again, i'm prattling on and on about nonsensical stuff =\

Alritey. Time for me to...get kicked off the internet for good. Gosh, I'm addicted to the net and facebook.

Hope I don't show withdrawal symptoms soon :p

11th November 2009

P.S I didn't realize it was the 11th of November! xD

So...I've been thinking about it.

Sometimes all I wanna do is pour out my heart and soul into my blog.

But also keeping in mind that I can't control who reads it.

I was thinking of making my blog private but I'm just too lazy to send out the permission e-mail thingi ma jiggy =\
Also I dunno who might wanna read my blog and who doesn't. Haha.

Or whether if I don't invite a certain person, will they feel offended.

Because, I've just typed out a post that is just too...private. To be read by ppl whom I dunno.

=\

Also I don't want certain people to read it *cough cough* ;P

Still thinking about it >.<

8th November 2009

Being confused is what I can describe about myself now.

Coming to terms of what I am. Who I am. And How I am.

Not easy.

Time will never wait for anyone. Which includes me.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

8th November 2009

Imagine if this question was being asked to you...

" What is your deepest darkest secret...."

Would you tell them?

Obviously the internet is the worst place to tell secrets. Haha. You never know who would come across it.

Personally I prefer to tell my secrets and feelings face to face.

HOWEVER...
If you managed to set the right mood...
Say the right things...
Touch on the right topic...

I would just tell.

ahahaha. *Must stop laughing like an idiot >_>*

But thanks :) You know who you are ;) Thanks for listening to me crap about my insignificant details.

And my obviously sad childhood story as cliched as this sounds :p

You just made me feel waaaaay much lighter :)

5th November 2009

Where do I belong?

Sometimes I feel like I don't belong. Like.... I'm meant to be elsewhere and with different people

:s

Where do I go? Whom do I go with?

4th November 2009

Shall only restrict myself to internet to TWO hours per day...
No.

ONE hour.

So, if you see me online, SHOO ME OFF

t.t

3rd November 2009

This song deserves some love !!



Unfortunately I can't get the one with the official music video cuz they disable the embed.

Sooo, if you want the one with the official music video, Fireflies - Owl City

Go! What are you waiting for!!

1st November 2009

So....Why do we discriminate?

Who knows.

I for one believe that no race is superior to the other and that we are all equal. Why doesn't everyone think the same? I mean, are YOU really that much superior?

I know i'm on sensitive grounds right now but I just can't help wondering. Why are we not treated equally? Even as I speak, I know of some people who look down on me just because I'm chinese. And thats the sad part.

You hate me because I'm chinese? Pfft. World's best excuse ever.

Ah well, there will always be idiots like this eh? But at least there are quite a majority of people who are so unlike them.

We live in a MULTI-RACIAL country. Yet, we still face problems like this every now and then. How are we, as Malaysians supposed to justify that?

Shame on all of us isn't it? Yet things like 1Malaysia, and PLKN are supposed to....er... whats the term...memupuk smth? Encourage? Er...racial integrity? Or something like that.

Well the thing is, in terms of PLKN, making them sit for LECTURES isn't gonna help dude. Not in a million light years it ain't. You're just wasting the taxpayers money. In case you didn't know, lecturing people who are around the age of 17-20 just ain't gonna work. As you might have known, had you done more research.

The ability for US to absorb information via lecture is only effective for the first 20 minutes and that is provided you get an exciting "lecturer". Imagine the utterly boring, sejarah teacher type. Oh gosh, cut that to a quarter. What, 10 minutes? You've barely started the damn thing.

So? Verdict?

31st October 2009

P.S. Oh yea, Happy Halloween guys xD Lol. Halloween is so insignificant in Malaysia that it only deserves a one liner :p

Is to eat ice-cream.

You will literally chill.
In the cold sense.

Last time, all it took for me to calm down was to feel the wind, and eat ice-cream.

Now? It doesn't work anymoreeeeee :(

What do I do now? t.t

a) Read P.S I Love You *i just bought it*
b) Talk to my penguin
c) Go blast some alien, a.k.a my brother
d) Run around the house screaming at 10.30pm
e) Go sleep
f) Smack the mosquito till its guts spill all over the place
g) Rant on and on about how idiotic some Malaysians can get

LOL.
Option f is kinda hard since my room has quite a lot of dark stuff.

I shall now choose option g.
You know, same old same old. Malaysian drivers are a bunch of idiots because :-

1. Apparently the signal is there for decoration purposes only. Most people can just chop off the whole signal thingi and they'd not notice
2. The only thing a headlight is for, is to flash at people. Not to on it during rainy conditions
3. People can read their minds!!! Despite cutting queues during heavy traffic without the signal on with only 10cm in front of the car. If you're wondering why they do this, refer to no 1.
4. The right lane, is to go at 60km/h on a highway. The whole purpose of driving that slow is to make sure everyone sees your car. Its also very amusing to see people who are trying to cut in front go to the middle lane and see them raise the middle finger. They're just saying hi.
5. Pulling over at awkward places such as in the middle of the road just to run down and get something is the best way instead of letting someone wait in the car. Also, stopping right you turn into a junction is the most strategic spot for an accident. I mean, most strategic spot to stop. Especially if you're occluding the whole entire lane, making people late for their meetings.
6. Slowing down to watch an accident and writing down the car plate number is also the "in" thing to do. I mean, who cares about the long stretch of cars behind who are rushing right? Just slowing down, taking pictures, writing down the details. Heck yea! Winning that 4D is so darn important!

Glad THAT'S outta my system.

Is anyone free to talk to me and cheer me up?
Based on my mood now, I'm PERFECT to be the angry SP now >_>
Anyone wants to take a medical history from me?

29th October 2009

New term I created *or maybe it has already existed >_>*
Definition? Refer to writer's block.

I have blogger's block because I couldn't remember about the topic I was supposed to blog about. Hence, I googled "What to blog about". Well, those focus on stuff that doesn't apply to me. Then, I came upon this.

"Suggest an idea: for a story or for a way to do things. Invite reaction and suggestions – and don’t expect people to come to you: approach people you might otherwise be shy of asking, and invite them to respond on the comments. Ideas can travel very far, so can be very effective in attracting readers."

Taken from
http://onlinejournalismblog.com/2009/02/04/starting-a-blog-12-ideas-for-blog-posts/

And this really caught my attention. Because...there is something that I'd like to share with you guys, and hope that you can spread it around ;)

This started when I was in standard 6. See...you might not notice this but...lets say...

Picture this scenario. Two people are talking to you at the same time. You only listen to one person. And usually, you go on and on about that particular topic right? Hence, leaving the other person to keep those thoughts to him or herself.

Well, I've noticed that because I was interrupted alot too :p And that made me....sad.
So...I decided to take the effort to change things around me. A little at a time, but at least I made the effort right?
When the same situation happens, only this time I'm in the position of the listener, I'd acknowledge the other person and say, " You were saying?"
Then, the other person can go ahead and let me know right? I started doing this in standard 6 and I DID notice a few people around me who do that now :D

I'm sure you've been a similar situation. Well, something like that at least.

I hope I've made a difference based on this post :x

Or maybe I'm being a naive idiot :(

23rd October 2009

LT2 (or was it LT1) 's air-cond is getting all pissy on us. Haha. Its sooo cold >.< Going to fall sick soon at this rate :\

I've just realized this while studying. *which means i wasn't studying afterall :p* That at this time, 2 years back, I would be in Taylor's. Taking my AS exams. 3 years back, I'd be in form 5, taking my SPM. 4 years back, I was struggling with my add maths in form 4, constantly failing and getting less than 50%. 5 years back, I would have either completed or am taking my PMR.

How time really flies.
It seemed like only yesterday where I was struggling with normal maths back in standard 5. Yes people. I failed maths in standard 5. I failed add maths in form 4 :p
But my ego wouldn't permit me failing maths. Failing history, geography, KH and moral on the other hand is fine by me.

So, I tried harder. Back in standard 5, apparently it was because I didn't understand the basics at all.
In form 4, it was because I just didn't understand it.

Lol!

So, I can proudly say that I got A in my SPM trial exams. An A1. HUGE improvement from my 40% back in form 4.

Wish I could say the same thing about myself.

I have a half-arsed motivation which is not going to get me anywhere.

I need to rediscover the reason why I've chosen this profession.

I wanna go on a soul-searching trip :(

So many "I wanna" that its not getting me anywhere.
Think I'll go on a solo jog one day and rediscover it ;)

Speaking of rediscovering, there was once on one of my jogs with Sarah in the Bukit Jalil park, we saw..

A family of..

WILD BOARS.

Ahahaha! It happened quite a while back actually :p It was hilarious xD

We were going for a late jog cuz we started out kinda late. It was kinda dark but bright enough.
They just...

Crossed.

Like...

Right in front of us.
To get a drink of water from the lake.

Hahahahahahahahhaah.

It was so funny. Another jogger who was coming from the opposite direction just stopped and stared. xD

Too bad I wasn't holding on to my phone or camera xD

The picture would have been EPIC.

23rd October 2009

Will only make you stronger.

This hasn't killed me yet. So...does that make me any stronger?
Its true that I'm more thick skinned and I've numbed myself to almost everything that hurts me.

But doesn't this mean I'm running away from reality?

Who knows. I need someone to slap me awake >.<

Btw, this isn't an emo post :p
This is just one of those..."self-discovery" posts kinda thing.

I'm still smiling :)

Albeit a little weird.

I suspect that chee cheung fun seller drugged e li's and my lunch.
Its either that or de Brio cafe.

So obviously drugged based on my reactions to all the lecturer's comments.

Lets not go to E Li's reactions.

Its as bad as the squishing the hedgehog and the lame joke session. Trust me.

20th October 2009

I shall try to be a new me soon! Watch out world!

First up, I wanna change all my bad qualities. Well, to the best of my abilities anyways.

NUMBER ONE.

Procrastination and bad sense of timing :x
I know i'm always late :x

I shall try to be not late from now on :)

Number 2.
I'm a bitch at times.

I'll try to get rid of that :s

Is there anything that you would really like me to change? TELL ME! I accept any sort of criticism. So if you wanna thrash me now, go ahead. Just put ur name as anonymous or smth if you feel uncomfortable of telling it to me straight.

Be honest yea?

Better go thickened my face first.
Haha.

20th October 2009

But it will never truly separate us :)

If the connection and heart is strong, we will survive!

18th October 2009

is never easy...

You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only option you have left.

And I am proud to announce that I have learned to let go.
Learn, meaning, still in the early stage. Every now and then, reading stuff makes my heart twinge a little.

But the pain is no longer there. The constant, dull and aching pain is no longer present.

Just an itsy-bitsy twinge in my heart. That's it.

Is this what it means to let go of stuff? My heart feels so much lighter, like a load has been taken off my shoulders.

So...the hyper Pei Li is back :)
Unless when I am yet to have food.
Or am tired.
Or its in the morning.

You NEVER expect a hyper Pei Li in the morning. If she is, that's not Pei Li.

Its my evil twin, Mei Li.

:p

17th October 2009

An incident yesterday restored a little of my faith in humanity.

I was buying groceries with my mum after Millers yesterday at The Store. So, they sell kuih bahkulu *i dunno how to spell it* and there was a guy making it. What he does is basically pour the batter into the moulds. He also had a whole stack of fresh kuih on a tray.

There was a little boy, who was running to and fro and just stopped right in front of that guy. He just stared, and ran back to his father who was just standing not too far away, watching his little boy.

Then, the guy there, took a kuih, and offered it to the little boy. The little boy smiled, took it, and of course, the dad asked him to say thank you. The boy said his thanks and started eating the kuih.

That little act of kindness...Do you call it kindness? I dunno. It just really touched my heart. Usually they would smile because its an innocent little boy, but nothing more. That he could spare at least one for the boy was really sweet to watch :)

That little incident really made me smile from the bottom of my heart, something I haven't been doing in a while.

Thank you for the miracle you just showed me :)

15th October 2009

Until being strong is the only choice you have...

People change so that you can learn to let go..
And things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right.

Learning how to let go may be tough, but its never impossible.
Learning how to be truly free was never easy but its still doable.

Nobody can be truly free from their problems.
Everyone has their insecurities and individual burdens.

Its how you deal with them and face them that truly makes you who you are.

Going through the process of finding yourself is never easy. But it always helps if you can find someone to depend on when you fall down.
Falling down would mean that you would be injured, crushed...unless if its something minor and you only escape with a few bruises and scrapes. Its not easy getting up if you're hit hard. Like, smack right into your face. In fact, depending on how strong you are it'd take a longer time to get up.

Of course, it ALWAYS helps if you know there's someone who will be behind you all the way. Be it your family or friends.

Thanks for being there for me :)

No matter how many times I fall, I know that I can depend on you guys to help me get up again.

11th October 2009