Home is Where the Heart is

The title says it all.

Happy CNY guys :)

They always say that animals are really sensitive to their surroundings and can detect stuff that humans can't. How would you react...if I told you this situation really happened to me?

I was just talking to a friend while standing, when her dog just stood up with the front paws on the couch, to lick my hand?

After that, the dog just walked away.

3rd Feb 2010

Looks like this is but a huge step in growing up.

Separations are inevitable. Just because it will happen and it always happens, doesn't mean we don't feel a thing when it happens.

It always hurts.

No matter how happy a note we leave that person...no matter how much time we've tried to spend with that person before separating...

It always hurts.

On another topic, yes i'm random, sometimes there are things we can't tell because of how well we know that person.

For example...if you have a huge secret...you might feel ok telling it to someone whom you've only known for a year or two. But you would be dead afraid of telling it to someone whom you've known for nearly a decade. Or maybe this just applies to me. Who knows? Why am I afraid?

I'm afraid of rejection. Afraid that the person's point of view will change...just plain afraid that the person won't accept me. So very insecure and afraid...

My best friend told me this though. Sure. But you can also look at it both ways. Its because we're that close...that we know we can tell that person. That person will always be by your side, supporting your decision. Because I'm me. And no one else can replace me.

Also, if your best friend is a true friend through and through, he/she will only leave when you say, goodbye. I don't need you anymore. This was once again said by my friend.
How it really hurt me when I read this sentence. I told myself...I will never say that. Not only will it hurt my friend, it will deeply hurt me. A scar that will never heal. I would be devastated and it would kill me inside.

Well, that's what friends are for afterall. True friends stick with you through thick and thin. True friends would never get closer to you for something. True friends would never simply judge you. And true friends will definitely help you no matter what.

So far, all of my closest friends have gone overseas. Only a few are still around peninsular and another one is about to leave me soon.

I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. Maybe this is just another of His will. Its a sign telling me to learn how to stand on my own two feet. No more leaning and being fully dependent on someone else when I'm hurt. I would just have to deal with it. Sure, I can ease the pain by sharing it. But sometimes...I just have to keep it to myself.

Being hurt is a part of growing up. All the sadness and sorrow are also a part of life. Of course, with every action, there's an opposite and equal reaction right? With sadness and sorrow, there's always happiness and hope. Happiness by being truly alive, and hope for a better future.

Also, hope that we will meet again soon.

To all my friends who are overseas, do know that I truly cherished the times we had together. And that I miss you guys everyday. Gone were the days where I can just drop an sms or a phone call asking you guys out. However, with technology, sometimes, it feels like you guys are still in Malaysia.

So here's a wish and prayer. That you guys will stay safe and that we will meet in the near future.

Of course, to Tsing and Lai Mun who are just technically still in Malaysia, the above applies to you :p

Take good care guys :)

Love ya~

:D

27th Jan 2010

Yea...its going to be Feb. I know. Sue me :p

How time flies huh? Just imagine this...

13 years ago, I would be in primary school. Standard 1. I was really small in size and would always be bullied. Not exactly happy memories.

8 years ago and I'm in secondary school. Where I would meet friends whom I trust till this very day.

3 years ago. Started Taylor's.

2 years ago. Final year in Taylor's.

Last year. Started semester 2 in IMU.

Yea...how things have changed. How the people around me have changed.
Guess this is what you call maturity? xD

Or growing up :x

Also sad to see that nobody blogs anymore :x
Am I the only sad one? :p

26th Jan 2010

Tell me...when was the last time you just dropped whatever you were doing, and just stopped to smell the roses? I can proudly say the last time I did was just a few hours ago.

But of course that was just the most recent one :p

The one before this would have been a very very long time ago. Way back to when I was in high school I believe.

Sad huh? I know.

And even in high school itself, I remember it was in lower secondary.

Even sadder >_>

So...remember. We need a break sometimes. Time waits for no one afterall. What's past can no longer return. So many things I could have done...yet..

20th January 2010

Life goes on for all of us. Despite everything that happens to you...despite all the hardships you go through, despite all the hurdles...

Time waits for no man.

So...live your life while you can. As the song Kris Allen goes, " We gotta live like we're dying".

If you have a thought, put it into motion.
If you have something to say, say it immediately, after thinking of the consequences.
If you have something to do, do it immediately. No point pushing it till the last minute right?
If you have something to love, love it with all your heart.
If you have something you miss, go and get it back.

Don't let the day past while you're filled with regrets :)

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Can someone help me with blogger? t.t I'm having trouble inserting a background again t.t The blue colour is too...melancholic :x

And I still can't fix the stupid date thing =.=

20th January 2010

My new year starts now!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! xD

Let all the unpleasantness through out the 2 weeks since the 1st January 2010 get flushed out of my system.

11th January 2010

Why is that? I just can't seem to feel any emotions anymore.
I don't feel happy...
I don't feel sad...
I don't feel angry...
I don't feel disappointed...
I don't feel nervous...
I don't feel hate...
I don't feel love...

I just don't anymore. Looking back...I guess I started feeling this way back in form 3. By closing up my heart to everything, I shut everything out.

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Aaanyways, I'm on a baking spree! If it weren't for the fact that we still have my brother's birthday cake, plus all the cookies I recently baked...I would have moved on to gingerbread! But yea...=\
Leftovers.

And its all with chocolate chips! I mean...if there weren't any I would have offered some to my dogs :p They LOVE cookies. Haha. But honestly, my baking goes unappreciated in my house =.=

Especially my brother. He keeps complaining and yet he eats it =.=

Grrrr....

Sometimes I just feel so unappreciated =\
But hey, that's just me :p

I know it sounds kinda thick faced to say this but...would anyone like to try when i make another batch? :x

I promise you won't choke >.<

10 Januray 2010

Heh. It sucks being a failure.
But I guess each failure is but a stepping stone in life.

Well...huge day today. Lol. Burnt a huge batch of cookies :(

Went IKEA and bought a new chair~

Too many things happening at once.

*SIGHHHH*

Ah well. Life moves on.

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Niways...here's my new year's resolution!

1. To keep my new year's resolution
2. Stop procrastinating
3. Always be on time. Try...aiming to reach the destination 30 minutes before the promised time
4. Stop buying story books until I finish reading all my new ones. *which might never happen*
5. GO JAPAN! :D

Number 5 might not happen this year though :x

8th January 2010

Goodbye 2009.


2009 was the worst year ever. To me anyway.
Why do I say that?

2009 was the year I failed and had to retake.
2009 was the year where most of my friends left to further their studies.
2009 was the year where I learned so many shocking news.
2009 was the year where Yasmin Ahmad passed away.
Also the year Michael Jackson passed away. Leaving behind a legacy.

Many more too have left us, leaving only a legacy.

2009 was also the year where I learnt so many truths.
Also the year I heard a lot of lies.

Everything has its own pros and cons. 2009 felt like a year full of cons.

This didn't exactly turn out the way I envisioned this post to be. Haha.
Hearing my family being hurt...getting myself feel hurt...Being hurt by people who I thought were my friends...

It hasn't been a pretty year. No siree. It hasn't.

Let's hope that 2010 brings with it good fortune and good luck.
The wind of change has to start blowing away all this misfortune.

2010 is a fresh start. The start of a new year. A new beginning.

Sorry for the emo starter :p

Happy New Year guys! :)

Looks like I didn't change my blog to suit the festive spirit xD

Sowie~

That being said, loads of things have changed since my last post.
Namely...

Exams.

Urgh. They're out to kill you. When you thought you're well prepared, they just jump right in front of your face, rearing their ugly sides, proving you wrong =.=

Anyways, evil thoughts aside, MEL'S BACK! :D

Welcome back Miss White ;p
I wonder if you've gained some weight and look less white than before xD

Funny thing was, Mel called me while I was in the drive-thru. The MCD's on the way back home.

Mel: PEI LI! ARE YOU DONE WITH YOUR EXAMS??
Me: Er...Yea. Just finished it.
Mel: GREAT! QUICKLY COME DOWN! WE'RE RIGHT IN FRONT OF IMU!! :D
Me:....Er....Mel...I left IMU like...10 minutes ago.
Mel: Oh... :(

Sorry mel :x You really should have told me earlier. Or called me 10 minutes earlier when I was still in IMU xD

Ah well. There's always the 31st ;D

And Yee Wen called too! :)
So touched that you thought of me after your trip ;D
And no. I wasn't thinking about gifts. Haha. But I appreciate the thought and effort ;)

Thanks for the penguin :p

Right guys. Gotta go study for OSCE =.=
Hope the SP's don't pull any funny stunts on me or I will personally scream, at them. After punching them. After crying in front of them. After strangling the lecturers so that they won't know.

If they're gonna complain to me about leg pain, tummy pain or just PAIN in general, or fatigue, I swear I'm gonna go all beserk.

Too bad it won't give me any marks :(

Btw, a belated Merry Christmas to my loyal fans xD

*cough cough*

29th December 2009

This christmas is gonna be a rather sad event for me :(

Not only do I have to suffer in the evil clutches of the evil that is known as the EXAMS OF IMU, or, EOI, or, EOS, as it is officially recognized by students and lecturers alike, but I would be celebrating Christmas with less people than before. Well, less close people than before anyways :p

With the old, comes the new. Same thing applies to my friends. With the old leaving me one by one, the new comes in too. As we grow up, the friends we make tend to be less close to us. We share less things and are not as intimate. Well, to me anyway.

But, I have vowed to change. One step at a time.

But I digress :p

Walking in the mall just last week with Lai Mun, Yan Leng and Tsing, made me realize how much I miss my friends who have left already. Of course, I am currently referring to two people who have always treated me well and loved me for who I am ;)

Dianne and Yee Wen :)

Passing by all the penguins that are being sold right now really made me felt it. Funny way huh? All my recent penguins were their gifts :p

Also, out of reflex, I would often look out for horsies, or anything unique that can be gifted. The former being Yee Wen's fave, and the latter being something Dianne would like.

Then it would slowly strike my mind.

How do I give it to them?

:(

Not a very happy thought during this festive season eh?
Doesn't help with all the little booths and stores placed strategically on the walkways in all major shopping complexes.

I guess I should thank my evil nemesis, EOS, for confining me to either IMU or home then :p

On the happier note, MELLY IS COMING BACK AFTER MY EXAMS! :D
Or should I say, during my exams :p
We were making so many jokes of how Lai Mun and Melly would miss each other in the airport and that their planes would somehow intersect. Haha.

Well Melly, you've given me a Christmas present already :p
Your return.

Awwww....so sweet :p

And mushy :x

15th December 209

1 : the state of being friends
2 : the quality or state of being friendly

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Part 1

'Its my first day, its my first day, its my first day...' , I kept chanting in my head. I was excited of course! As would any normal 7 year old would. It was my first day of school! But even with all that excitement, I felt a small twinge of dismay. Both mum and dad wouldn't be around because of their work. They had to work extra hard due to the recent downturn of the economy. Even grandpa and grandma wouldn't be around because they had to take care of my younger brother. Oh well...

Shaking my thoughts, I look around me. All of them are as excited as me. It was a whole bus load of 7 year-olds. There was a lot of chattering as people who knew each other started talking. Of course, being in a small town-like area, some people were bound to end up in the same primary school from kindergarten.

At last, the bus stopped. 'Finally!', I thought. As I got down, it seems everyone is just as excited as I am. Trying not to look at the children who have their parents in tow, I start looking for my class.

'HEY!', someone yelled. I turned around. A larger girl was running towards me. Then again, everyone was larger compared to me, due to my small stature. She panted after she caught up with me. 'Hey!', she exclaimed. 'Huh? Er...Yes?', I asked.

'Aww, c'mon. Don't you know me? I sat right next to you earlier! And I didn't get to ask your name either. My name's Hazel', she exclaimed while holding her hands out to shake mine.

'Er...Oh. Ehehe. Right. I'm Alexis', I blushed as I reached to shake her hand.
'Eh? Alexis? That sounds like a guy's name...Ah well. I'll just call you Alexis! Alright?' She grinned after shaking my hand.
'Er...sure? Why not?', I smiled.
'Oh yea!!! C'mon!! I know where our classes are! Let's go let's go!', she said while grabbing my hands and literally dragging me to my class.

'Here we are! Looks like this is our class!', she exclaimed.
'Er...eh? Ok.', I nod, a little disorientated.

I glanced the classroom. Half the class was already filled with students. Being 7 year-old, everyone was shouting, running, yelling, talking and just playing around. Occasionally, there would be 1 or 2 quiet ones who would just watch the entire thing while seated.

'C'mon! Let's get seated!'. Grabbing my hand, she dragged me again to 2 seats situated in the middle of the classroom.
'Mmm...'kay'. I put my bag down and continued looking at my surroundings.

My class was like any normal government school. The floor was just cement, smoothed up by the years of wear and tear. The walls were white, littered with graffiti and shoe marks. The windows were the individual glass panes, but dusty after all those years of neglect. However, the class still had a comfortable feel to it.

'Looks like I'll be just fine here' I thought to myself while smiling.

Little did I know...this was just the calm before the storm.
I was about to go through hell.

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Short story to help keep my english in check. I think my english has deteriorated >.<
If you see any grammatical errors, assuming you actually read all the way here, please let me know :)
Critiques are welcomed.
Let the flamming begin.

8th December 2009

These are all of my painful experiences explained in poetry style~ Each stanza represents one story.
Last reflection before I continue studying t.t

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I've always wanted to laugh
Cry, and talk beside you.
But I also understood that you needed to be away.
As much as this pains me, I know.
I just know.

If only I picked the right ones.
I regretted choosing you.
You never stood by my side
No matter how much I told you about it.
But you made me what I am.

Why did you do this to me?
I didn't do anything to you.
Over domineering you are.
But I kept quiet.

If only I had been more adamant.
But still...why?
The betrayal that I felt was painful.
It hurt.
It hurt so much...

I know you disliked me.
You disliked me for being me.
What was I to do?
I didn't have the power
Nor the courage.

Our decisions made us who we are now.
Some part of me regretted it.
But the other part of me didn't mind it at all.
How much my world would have changed had I chosen that.

Your words were harsh
Your indifference was even more piercing.
I had no idea then.
I do now.
How could I have been so blind?

I misunderstood you.
I'm sorry.
How I wish I could have just said it back then.
I'm sorry...

How I wish time stood still for me at that one moment.
It was one of the happiest moments of my life.
However...
Time waits for no one.
Always moving
Never stopping.

I regretted listening to you.
Because of that, I'm treading on a path.
A path which I pray fervently isn't the wrong one.
It may not be the wrong one.
But is it the right one?

How could I have been so blind yet again?
Once bitten, twice shy.
Yet, I didn't listen to that saying.
I was blinded....again.

Letting you go may have been the wrong decision
But not something to regret.
Who knows how things would have been now?
It isn't my place to say that.
Not anymore...

Last farewell.
It seemed like ages before you left.
But when you did...
It felt like ages since I last saw you...

Seeing you leave made my heart ache
But I didn't cry.
As much as you wanted me to.
Because showing that meant showing to the whole world.
In front of people whom I'm not comfortable of showing it to.
If only it were a more private event.

It felt like only yesterday.
When we were joking and chatting about everything around us.
When you were dishing advice while showing me how fragile I am
Despite the difference in size.
Yet I missed it when you left.
I'm sorry...

Again?
That's what my mind keeps telling me.
One by one, a part of me keeps leaving.
See you...

Yet again?
Sigh.
If you must.

I thought I made the right decision.
Heh.
I must have been stupid and blind.
Like an idiot stumbling through darkness.
Holding nothing but a short stub called a candle.
Making a fool out of myself.

I'm afraid of telling you.
So...so...afraid...
Afraid that you might hate me.
Be disgusted at me.
Wondering what happened to me.

It struck like a sledgehammer.
No...
No...
But it did.
Thanks for being there.

Wow.
News after news.
Its unfair of you to think that I wouldn't be in shock for a while.
But thanks for letting me know.
Really...
Thanks.

Why?
What is this awful feeling I keep feeling...
Too afraid of letting anyone know...
Too afraid of the truth...

Thanks for listening to me.
It helps knowing that I'm not alone.
That there's someone out there who understands.
One who's been thru it.
One who's willing to lend an ear.

Lesson learnt?
Apparently not.
Here we go again.
Its going to be hell..
One hell of a roller coaster ride.
My emotions are ready for that roller coaster ride.
Smack right after a bungee jump.

8th December 2009

Once again, I'm being lazy and shall not upload the pics. Again. Haha.
No ranting today. I'm in a good mood. Just had fish head noodles~ So yummy~~
:p

I'm full. Which means i'm content. I'm also sleepy because I woke up early and dragged myself out of bed *cough cough* Its your fault. You know who you are.

So....I'm here to start a debate! :D
If no one replies in my cbox, i'll just SHAMELESSLY think of it as a debate between myself and the wall. Hah!

And i'll SHAMELESSLY and THICK FACEDLY *no such word but meh..* assume that people read my blog. Haha.

So...Here's the debate. Xanga, Blogger, or something else?
Something else being referring to other blog sites such as wordpress or livejournal or myspace. I dunno >_>

Which one is the best? Xanga was where it all started for me. But since my xanga blog is now on the batch blog, that means no privacy :p Well...almost. Haha. I don't really like people whom I don't know reading my blog. Just friends that I know please :p

Right. The debate. Let's see... What I like about Xanga...

1. Allows you to make certain posts private without making the WHOLE blog private. You can also pick certain people and allow them to read that particular post.
2. Allows you to track who visits your blog.
   
3. Maybe its because Xanga was the first blog I've ever had, I find it easier to customize certain options.
4. And now, I can see which Xanga friend that I've added has updated their blogs, or has commented on my posts.
   

What I hate about Xanga

1. It loads extremely slow at night, when Malaysia's internet is at its SLOWEST peak. Cuz, everyone else from across the world are awake and sapping Malaysia's pathetic bandwith. Don't know if its still slow at night though. And also because I usually blog at night, or at the wee hours of the morning :p
2. Its too much of a hassle if I wanna privatise the posts and allow only certain people to read it because instead of just typing in your e-mail, you would need to create a Xanga account.

Right. Now on to Blogger. What I like about Blogger is

1. Its fast. Full stop. Hahahahaha. *faster than xanga anyway* The last time I used it.
   
2. Also, I can check how many posts I've created so far, how many drafts I have. I don't think Xanga has that.
   
3. It auto saves. So if I accidentally x the browser at least one portion of my post is there. Imagine typing a touching post only to have accidentally x-ed the whole browser =="
4. You can save drafts! I don't think Xanga has it but correct me if I'm wrong.

What I hate about blogger >_>

1. Like I said, maybe its because I'm used to Xanga, I find it hard to customize Blogger.
2. If I wanna have privacy, I would need to make my WHOLE blog private. Then slowly send out invitations. Something which I'm just too lazy to do :p
3. I still have no idea how to repost old pictures that I've uploaded >_> On xanga, they would show me the whole album.
   

Ok fine. Number 3 is actually because I have no idea how. Haha.

Right. Time to take my evening nap.

2nd December 2009

I am not going to post the pictures of my hike :p

Fine! I'm lazy! Happy? Haha. I hate uploading pics because it takes ridiculously long. Unless if I do it at 5am in the morning. When the internet is fast in Malaysia >_>

So I've been thinking, *which is bad since i'm supposed to be studying*, I really wanna change myself. For real. The big step has to be now when i'm still surrounded by people whom I know will back me up if something goes wrong. Not when i'm alone in a foreign land.

Question is...How?
I'm not the type to just initiate conversation just like that. I'm not the type to just randomly go up to people and introduce myself. I'm not one to talk. I listen. I don't initiate conversation, I go with it. But I know, this has to change.
I tried once. I really did. I started a conversation. But it always ends up in awkward silence. I try to keep the conversation flowing but after a while, I just feel so tired mentally I'll just keep quiet.

The problem with humans, or any sociable living animal for that matter, is that they tend to stick with those that talk. Those that are leaders. Hey, i'm sure you'd rather stick with a friend who's friendly than a more quiet friend right? It takes a lot of courage and personality to go up to a quiet friend when you're the center of attention. For example, picture this. You're popular. The center of everything. You have tons of friends. But you notice a lonely figure, feeling left out from everything. Just sitting alone, watching you and all your friends with sad eyes but just sits there. What would you do? Would you leave your position of being with the crowd just to go to that lonely person? I'm sure you won't. You'd most probably look away, pretending you didn't see anything and continue right?

But I digress.

I really want to change but its so deeply ingrained in me to be who I am. Sure, I've changed since high school I will admit. Not much, I think. But change is change. Being more open than before, actually initiating conversation, being much more confident in myself, my view on life in general and my own.
So much has changed. I've changed from that naive, clingy, unconfident, quiet girl to what I am. Still naive, still clingy, slightly more confident, less quiet. Haha. Still learning how to tell between right and wrong, still having problems choosing friends wisely, still finding my place, still searching.

Well, the change is still in progress but I have tried to change myself since starting IMU.
First of all, I've tried to be more friendly by starting conversations. Unfortunately, that didn't go too well as I would often be at a loss as to what to continue the conversations with. Also, I seem to tire easily just by doing all that. It was TOO drastic a change for my mind to handle I guess.

Next, I've tried to change my clothing style. Being in IMU means that we can't really wear t-shirts and jeans. But that doesn't mean I cheated a little :p I do wear t-shirts. With collar. Haha. I wear sneakers. But those that are black, with little design so that the guards won't notice. Unfortunately, the CSU sisters did. Haha. I wear formal pants. Everytime. How did I change?
Well, I decided to go for a more casual formal, semi-formal look. My 'formal' clothes aren't exactly the formal t-shirts. I guess you'll have to see it to understand what i'm trying to say :p I've ditched formal clothes for many reasons. Main reason being, ITS UNCOMFORTABLE DAMMIT. Whoever invented formal clothes must have put COMFORT at the bottom of the list. I have broad shoulders. Wearing a S size meant that its kinda tight at my shoulders. Wearing an M would mean that the shirt looked too big on me ==" Gah. So I gave up wearing formal, wearing it only if I have to.

Next, I changed my hairstyle. Well..if you call leaving my hair long changing my hairstyle. The reason I chopped my hair back in secondary school was because it was such a bother. I could never keep my hair neat. Well...to tell you the truth. The same applies now :p But I've decided to tell myself this. If my hair is long, I can always cut it short. More choices on how to style it xD But if I cut it short...I have limited choices. Well...Its all bullshit seeing as I kinda contradict myself by not cutting it >_> And by cutting it short, it usually means the hairstylists will cut my fringe short. Which is something I absolutely hate for the rest of my life. I don't like having my hair in my eyes.
Unfortunately, as we all know, you tell the hairstylists one thing, they'll insist on cutting it just a little shorter >_>

Well. That's just on the outside. How do I change on the inside? Other than being more outspoken, friendly and communicative? I guess I'll go for being independent for now. Seems like the easiest thing. No?
Sigh. Guess this means its time to try staying in Vista. And see how I suffer xD Still considering it as I don't know how my parents will react. My main concern would be food since i'm so picky :p

Ah well. This seemed more like a rant >_> Sorry. Couldn't help myself xD
Lets see...I guess I should learn by now to never promise to post something since I'll always be too lazy to do so. Haha! The pics...will be up when I feel like it :p
Well...that is, if you wanna see it. I mean, if there are no enthusiastic responses I'll take it as, you've already seen it on facebook and no longer have the interest to see me post repetitive stuff.

So..till then.

1st of December 2009

P.S. Looks like someone is gonna hit the big two-oh tomorrow, the 2nd of December 2009 :p Happy Early Birthday :)

Can't think of anything to make the EPIC post so I shall now post up this tag, which was stolen from stephy's blog. Haha. Looked nice so I thought of doing it.

ABC Questions About You :

A - AVAILABLE : Yup. Of course there are these things called exams now t.t
B - BIRTHDAY : 8 August
C - CRUSHING ON : Hmmmm...who knows? xD
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD : Water
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO : People who I know are my friends and trust.
F - FAVORITE SONG : For now? A japanese song titled ボンゴレ VS ミルフィオーレ - ファミリー ～约束の场所～. Its a looooooong title xD
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS : Gummy Bears. Worms are a little too...uncute xD
H - HOMETOWN : KL/ Klang
I - IN LOVE WITH : My laptop. Its taking the stress of studying
J - JUGGLE : HAHAHAHA. Have you SEEN me juggle? xD
K - KILLED SOMEONE : Nope. For now >.<
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE : From Gunung Tahan and back. I slept and was trying to keep my friend awake.
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR : Choco! :D
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS : 1
O - ONE WISH : Who wants to know?
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST : Li Zhen
R- REASON TO SMILE : Knowing that I still have true friends despite everything that has happened to me :)
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD : おねむうた by Junko Takeuchi and Chiang Li Mei. Its a really cute song xD
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP : 11.45am. I off my alarm and went back to sleep :x
V - VEGETABLE(S) : Carrots!
W - WORST HABIT : Procrastination. Even now =="
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD : One for my braces
Y – YOYOS ARE : Something I could never do tricks on.
Z - ZODIAC SIGN : Leo.


Random Questions About You :

Spell your name without vowels : W N G P L. If you add my english name, L X S. Haha.
What colour do you wear most? : Black, White and Red. Like Po. Haha
What are you listening to? : Cosplay Party - Neeko
Are you happy with your life right now? : Not too bad.
What is your favorite class in school? : English, Maths and Add Maths.
When do you start back at school/college? : Er...Technically we're done with classes.
Are you outgoing? : Nope. I was worse back in high school though :p I still am, but not that bad
Favorite pair of shoes? : Gimme sneakers anyday
Where do you wish you were right now? : Lying down on my bed, listening to songs while reading a STORY BOOK t.t


THE CANS :

Can you dance? : Ahahahahaha. No.
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? : Heh? I'd like to try it out now xD
Can you whistle? : Yup. I can't click my fingers though :(
Write with both hands? : I wish.
Walk with your toes curled?: Yes. But sometimes my legs cramp up when i do that


THE DO'S :

Do you believe there is life on other planets? : You never know.
Do you believe in miracles? : Yes
Do you believe in magic? : No
Love at first sight? : Hmm...maybe?
Do you think there's a Satan? : Yes
Do you believe in Santa? : Nope. Never did
Do you know how to swim? : Can't float though. Haha
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? : I mean, if I were paid a lot of money then yes? Haha.

THE HAVE'S:

Have you ever been on a plane? : Yes.
Have you ever asked someone out? : Nope.
Have you ever been asked out by someone? : Yup
Have you ever been to the ocean? : Yea...one of the few things that I like. The ocean calms me down.
Have you ever painted your nails? : Yup. With pink. Haha. Cue people going, " WHAT??"

THE WHAT'S:

What is the temperature outside? : Cool I think. Its already midnite.
What radio station do you listen to? : Hitz, Fly, 104.9...I channel surf sometimes.
What was the last restaurant you ate at? : Er...JM Beriyani House or smth like that. Near Taylor's.
What was the last thing you bought? : Bookssss :D STORY BOOKS. Haha.
Who was the last person you took a picture of? : At TGI. Guan Teck's celebration.


CRYING SECTION :

Ever really cried your heart out? : Yea..Recently.
Ever cried yourself to sleep? : Yup. But quite some time ago.
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? : Ehehehe. I rarely cry in front of people to begin with.
Ever cried over the opposite sex? : Yes
Do you cry when you get an injury? : Only that one time where it was extremely painful. Haha
Do certain songs make you cry? : Yup. There was one but I forgot the title.


HAPPY SECTION :
Are you a happy person? : Most of the time, yup.
What can make you happy? : Being surrounded by my real friends. Not people who claim to be.
Do you wish you were happier? : Don't we all?
Can music make you happy? : Yup


LOVE SECTION :

How many times have you had your heart broken? : How many? :p Se-cr-et.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? : Who knows?

LOOK AT ME SECTION :

What is your current hair color? : Black.
Current piercings? : One on each ear *STEPHY! YOUR TURN*
Have any tattoos? : Want to. But...its unprofessional to get one :p
Eye color? : I wish it was blue. But its black.


In a man, (change it to the opposite sex when your answering this)

Favorite eye color : Unimportant.
Short or long hair : Haha. Short hair pls.
Height : Taller than me will do. Which shouldn't be that hard I guess. My bro calls me short ==
Best clothing : Anything.


HAVE YOU EVER :

Been to jail : Nope.
Mooned someone : HAHAHAHA. That'd be weird yet hilarious xD But no.
Thrown up in a store : Never.
Done something really stupid that you laugh at it till today : Ehehe. Yes? xD
Gone skinny dipping : No.


THIS OR THAT :

Pepsi or Coke : Coke.
McDonald's or Burger King : Burger king.
Single or Group Dates : Depends.
Chocolate or Vanilla : Chocolate. Everytime. Haha
Strawberries or Blueberries : Blueberries.
Meat or Veggies : Meat.
TV or Movie : Movie.
Guitar or Drums? : Electric Guitar. But I like drums too. *being greedy*
Adidas or Nike : Adidas.
Chinese or Mexican : Mexican.
Cheerios or Corn Flakes : Cheerios.
Cake or Pie : Pie!

Done! I'll er...procrastinate on the epic post and the hike once again xD

29th November 2009

I miss going to tuitions.
I miss stepping in the puddles.
I miss talking to my friends.
I miss not having to bother about major exams.
I miss writing essays.
I miss making close friends.
I miss hanging out.
I miss being called the human calculator.
I miss being asked "What is 3x3" only to not answer it.
I miss "manja"-ing my friends *cough cough* xD

I miss the BBQ we had. The grill is still kinda there :p

I miss going for piano classes.
I miss going for mental arithematic classes.
And I miss going for the competitions. Its the one time I feel really alive.

However....

I know that there's no point in dwelling in the past.
Memories are a way of holding on to things that I love, the things that were, and things that I never want to lose.

But someday, somehow, and somewhere, we have to learn to let it all go.
And my time is now.

These memories will always be in my heart.
Kept in a precious box and corner.
Always remembered, never forgotten.
It might bring a tear back every now and then...

But its time to really let it all go and move on.

Thanks guys, for giving me such precious memories to store into that box.
Thank you for giving me courage.

Thank you for making me who I am.

Thank you...

22nd November 2009

P.S The pics will be up. Soon xD I have them! :D

So....

As you guys know, or don't know, I hiked up Gunung Besar Hantu with 20+ Milers members.

It was a refreshing experience.

To be able to go on despite the pain, to be able to sleep through the pain, and to be able to tell myself, ' Just one last push Pei Li'.
Also, to be surrounded by people who helped encourage me and to physically help me all the way.

Thanks.

I've returned with scratches on my arms and hands, muscle aches everywhere, a hoarse voice, a twisted ankle, experience the signs and symptoms of hypothermia for myself, and the experience of hiking up and down slippery slopes.

To the rest of the Milers members who went, WELL DONE GUYS.
We did it! We climbed up all the way, *made fun of people who weren't there*, made phone calls and smses at the peak, and made it down.

Not to mention cross a river where after a heavy rain. We were praying all the way and all of us survived :)

Trust me. It was bad. Unfortunately the pics are with someone else's camera because I didn't take my camera up. I'll tag myself in fb for the pics, and steal some to post it here :)
I'll post those that I took with my friend's camera xD

17th November 2009

I've noticed that as we grow older, we tend to lose friends not because we fall out due to a fight, or because we realized that we suddenly hate each other or something.

Its because we're all too "busy" to take the time to communicate with each other. Hmmm...take for example.

Back when you're in primary school, you would always say, Hey, we'll be friends forever ya! Such naive thoughts. Because you know that the moment you don't end up in the same class even in primary school, or when you go to different secondary schools, you just don't....you know...become friends anymore. The next time you meet up, you might just feel awkward and you guys won't be laughing like close friends. Instead, you'll be thinking hard "What on earth do I say now?". That being said, you would also rarely come across each other as it is. Right?



Well now. You've then moved on to secondary school. And you've made new friends. I personally think that the bonds forged in secondary school would be stronger than those forged during our primary school years. Or it could just be referring to only me. As long as you don't end up changing classes every year, I'm sure you could make plenty, or at most, a few close friends. Then again, I'm just using my boring life as a template to my thoughts. Being a naturally quiet girl, yes, I AM quiet, I couldn't make many friends. Friends are something that isnt' easy for me to make. So shutup about me having few friends. I'd rather have 10 close friends than 500 friends whom I just occasionally talk to.

Then we move on to college. You make even more new friends. By now, your paths with your closer friends back in school might have differed. You would have preferred to be a lawyer, than say, a doctor, or, a politician. Or you would wanna be a teacher instead. Then, you'd be going off to different places for your tertiary education. Some would go to a private college/university, some would have gone to a local one. Others might have opt for form 6, or matriculation. And the rare few would have just proceeded to go overseas immediately.

This is when your bonds of friendship with your friends are trialed. Obviously if you haven't contacted your primary school friends even once then it'd be a miracle if you actually met each other. But keeping in contact with your secondary friends can be kinda hard if you have different schedules.

Then, you move on. After graduating from college you would have either completed everything and start looking for a job, or proceed to further your education; whether still local or overseas.
Either choices, you're getting further and further away from the people whom you once called your friends. And depending on whether you want to keep them or lose them, you would need to take the initiative.


Once again, i'm prattling on and on about nonsensical stuff =\

Alritey. Time for me to...get kicked off the internet for good. Gosh, I'm addicted to the net and facebook.

Hope I don't show withdrawal symptoms soon :p

11th November 2009

P.S I didn't realize it was the 11th of November! xD