Home is Where the Heart is

"A miracle is a perceptible interruption of the laws of nature, such that can be attempted to be explained by divine intervention" - Wikipedia



So....how do you define a miracle?

1. Amazing grades despite the fact you know you've screwed up the whole paper
2. You finally beat the game! WOHOO!
3. I dunno. Insert your own reason then. >_>

Well, I guess a miracle..or a calling..or i dunno. Something such as 'divine intervention' happened to me today.

So much so it was kinda freaky xD

It all started...

When I picked up today's paper.

Yea...

After reading an article... I just...felt better.

I looked up and suddenly, a cool breeze was blowing. The rustling of the leaves were so soothing.
The wind really calmed me and made my whole self feel lighter.

Everything that was really bothering me since the past month or so just felt so insignificant already. My inability to express reactions doesn't mean I don't feel anything ok >_>
The shock just doesn't register on my face. :p

Suddenly, the puzzle pieces fell right into place.

Scary? Haha.
I felt so insecure...always questioning...and this has been bothering me since quite a while. It peaked at its worse when I was flooded and swamped with stuff to do. Didn't help with the fact that on Friday, I felt so used and dumped. * No E Li, not talking about you**Yes seriously, NOT talking about you*

So yea. Of course you can always press the red button at the top right corner of your browser when you think. " Oh look, Pei Li has lost it".

In fact, don't read wikipedia when you type miracle in the search engine. Of course, after typing that sentence I expect nearly 90% of you guys to go ahead and do that.
Read the part on what C.S Lewis says then.

End of my post of the day.

Start of the stress of CSU. Haha. I just realized that I would need to learn the 9 abdominal regions.

And that I would be doing a rectal examination next week.

On a plastic model.

Or smth.

I dunno >_> It was kinda hilarious when I saw the title in the manual.

Tomorrow's general examination! Hope I get a hot SP ;)
Especially one with great abs since we're doing inspection of the GIT. Which means...
We get to inspect, palpate, percuss AND auscultate the ABDOMINAL region.

And if we're going to do that on someone slightly obese....
Well...

Lets just say its going to be hard to feel for the liver, spleen and kidney.

Wouldn't want me to mix up the 3 organs right? Haha.

Ok, high on choc and mooncake now.

4th October 2009

P.S When you're feeling down, remember this word.


HELLO! :D

PEI LI HERE! :D

Most of your eyebrows must be raised by now :p

--" Ok ignore me.

Is the way you treat someone.

Of course, countless texts always stress on the importance of first impressions, because it is that which helps how people analyze and kinda classify you.

Other than first impressions, how you treat the person throughout them knowing you is also important. I'll admit that I haven't been doing a fantastic job of treating them nicely and i apologize now if I've insulted you or hurt you in anyway. Unless if I really hated you then and there, and even up till now, it was unintentional.

As human beings, we fear rejection. So, forgive me if I say that its only normal that we sometimes create a strong front to show that we are not that vulnerable.
This applies to me too.

Of course, this fear of being rejected will always stay with me. Its just been too scary being all alone. Even now, I always have insecurities about everything around me. This insecurity is eating away at my patience and at times, my sanity. Well, on a small scale anyway.

But we have to adapt right? I have kinda adapted to this >.<>.< But, I understand that sometimes, you're busy. So...I guess its easier if I refrain from smsing huh?

By being treated differently than before is already bugging me. By not treating me as afriend I've already felt this insecurity.

Well, the 3rd person has their own issues so lets not touch there.

" The truth is...to have something halfway is harder than not having it at all"

3rd October 2009
2.58am

At some point of time, we will have to separate and follow our own dreams and lives.

Saying hello and goodbye is a norm in our lives. We say hi to new friends, and say bye to old ones.
Meeting new people is always a good thing. Its through that, that we are able to find ourselves and deal with different people throughout our lifetime.

Forging new ties, and keeping the cross-link of our ties are pretty hard. I mean, any physics law can tell you that anything long and huge will be very weak compared to something that's small and short.


But sometimes, we just have no choice but to break a few cross-links. Sometimes, we need to let go. Starting our own separate lives are sometimes challenging on its own. We're usually so caught up we tend to neglect the cross-links at the other end of the spectrum; too busy forging new ties, too busy building new cross-link. If its not taken care of, the other end will start crumbling right?


Finding the balance; which is to make new cross-links and to maintain the old ones, is kinda hard. But hey, if you're the kind who doesn't care whether the old ones are maintained, fine.
But what if you're like me? Who's afraid of losing those old cross-links WHILE forging new ones? For example, if you had TWO parties to attend, both at the same time, both at two ends of the world, whose would you go for? Your new friends, or your old friends? If you don't go for your new friends party, you might get left out. If you don't go for your old friends party, they'd think you don't want them anymore. To be fair, lets say that both of these parties were giving out their invitations at the same time and you happened to receive the invitation at the same time. What would you decide?

Well, we have our choice. As my lecturer said, "Diseases don't read textbooks". Each person reacts differently. Same as this situation. Different people react differently to different conditions.

All that crap being said, I'm beginning to think I shouldn't even blog anymore. Whatever I blog seems to be a whole lot of crap.


What do you think?

1st October 2009

Always say you'd rather live for that person instead :)

This particular statement triggered my memories from high school. Haha. It actually started from what something Ca Men said. And I mentioned this line instead. It instantly brought me walking down memory lane.

This is related to when I was...erm...either in form 1, or form 2. Or form 3 :p Between when I was 12-14 la...

It was during church with Dianne and Sarah. And they were preaching.

"Never say you'd die for that person. Say that you'd rather live for that person instead".

This sentence immediately changed my views back then. Last time, being the unconfident, and small sized teenager that i was, *yes i was short >_>* I kept thinking that...nothing would change even if I were here. Nothing would be different, no one would miss me. Hence, I'd rather die for someone. *oh gosh, I sound soooo depressed last time :p*

But after hearing those words...I thought, hey, maybe its alright for me to live for my friends, maybe....just maybe....I could change the world just by being alive, and that someone would actually miss me when I'm gone. Just maybe... Even if I were wrong, at least let me be a naive, little girl. Let me believe so.

So, ever since then, I'd always tell myself. Remember, never die for that person. Always say that you'd rather live for them instead :) Of course I'm not referring to situations when someone points a gun at your beloved. You're free to choose what to do then. Remember, there would always be someone who will be sad when you're gone. Be it your friends, or your family.

NEVER take your own life. Its just not time. There's actually so much more to do :) No matter how tired you are of life, there's just something to be discovered somewhere. For example...

Imagine if I took my own life back then. I wouldn't have been able to meet so many new friends :) Like, Lai Mun, Tsing, Yee Wen or even Mel. Haha. Not to mention the one of a kind Yan Leng. I wouldn't have been able to meet my friends in Taylor's. Or in IMU.
I wouldn't have the opportunity to learn that running is actually quite fun, and that Millers is the club that i've been searching for ;)
I wouldn't have been able to demand for chocolate *you know how you are!*
I wouldn't have found out that my thumbs hurt if I play too many octaves on the piano * as it is now >_>*
I wouldn't have been able to learn how heart wrenching is it to say goodbye to your friends; to learn that as we grow up, shit happens.
To learn that, the world just isn't as kind as I thought.

To learn that, sometimes, the unexpected just happens.

To also know that I can't pretend to put on a happy face in front of some people; that I can feel comfortable crying in front of them.

I wouldn't have been able to boast that I've been friends with P5 for 8 years now *and counting!*

And so much more.
I also wouldn't have the chance to touch patients. HAHA. Sounded a lil wrong there ;p
But hey, if the SP is hot.... *winks at E Li and Carr Men*

So yea...

See how much I would have missed?

Right. Time to stop procrastinating and go back to my AIR topic. Haha. Its been delayed for a week now X.X

My thumbs hurt :(

29th September 2009

P.S : You can give me a heads up if you wanna talk to me ;) I try to be on MSN most of the time now. Remember, I'm never too busy to talk to a friend. Of course, if you're like Ting Yu who likes to disturb for fun, I'd just ignore you ;P

Thank you Lord.

All these negative emotions, once they've reached the utmost peak you'd just feel like stoning.

Trying to escape from reality

Trying to sort things out.

Already twice in this year have I felt like this. Erm..thrice kinda.
The first was bad enough. I was almost late for an event.
The second was not too bad. At least I had someone to support me through the whole thing *you know who you are :)*
The third...is the worse one so far. You can't just toss all this information towards me and expect me to make sense of it in such a short time! The first news took a while to sink in. At least I was given time to prepare myself for the second one. But it was also abrupt all the same due to the sudden change.

I feel like crying but I can't.
I feel like screaming but I can't.
I feel like talking but I can't.

Right.

This is already halfway out of my system.
Sorry for the emo posts and status updates.

If you didn't notice it then....
Since when was I emo?

Lol.

Only one person said that.

It doesn't count if no one notices!

I'll be back to myself by monday. Gimme just one last day to emo before that k?

>.<

27th September 2009
1.52am

This year has been full of surprises, shocks, changes and news. Both good and bad alike.
It has also been chock full of challenges, ups and downs, and an altogether different type of happiness.

Right now, my heart really feels uneasy.
My mind is kinda blank.

All this information...all these changes...

Its too much and fast for me to take it all in.

A good teacher once told me that, if you're a good friend, you will not tell them your secrets.
I'll have to agree and disagree at that.

Agree because, sometimes you're just burdening your friend with the secret, and also you won't know how they would react.

Disagree because, friends are there to stick with you thru thick and thin. They're there for you to take that huge burden of your shoulders.

So many decisions, so many choices, so little time.

What would any of you have done in my position?
Listening is the easy part.
Living with the burden is the hard part.

Accepting the entire truth is the hardest part.

26th September 2009

Learning to let go of your past isn't easy. Especially if your past is filled with nothing but hurt. Of course, telling people all your past hurt really makes you feel lighter; like you've been cast off all the hurt and pain.

Like you've just been set free.

It really feels like a huge burden has been taken off my shoulders now. Just allowing me to rant and just knowing that you're listening has really helped me :)
Of course, the above is for two people. One who occasionally reads my blog, the other doesn't even come to my blog. Haha.

Thanks.

Just allowing me to rant, allowing me to just crap all the way, listening to whatever shit I say, listening to whatever crap I express.
I am now free.

Literally.

What I am in the past isn't really a proud thing. I was so useless, so weak, so alone; yearning for friendship, being cast aside like yesterday's old shirt.
In fact, as I was typing it out yesterday on MSN it really felt like I was the weakest person ever.

However, what's most important isn't your past. Its how you turn out to be despite your past.
I have learned to tolerate. I have learned to keep everything inside of me because in the past whenever I opened up, I was teared apart and pushed down. I have learned the true nature of human beings, I was shown just how cruel words can be, I also learned that not everyone is your true friend. In fact, their cruel words and actions really hurt me. Deeply. It left a wound that will never recover. It will forever leave me with a habit that two people are currently annoyed at :p

It left me with the inability to express my emotions properly and the inability to tell anyone a secret properly.

But it also left me with the ability to stand up after falling, left me with the ability to just ignore those hurtful words. It left me with the best of friends I could ever have. It left me with a rough judgment of the nature of my friends around me.

Despite all that, I'm still the naive little girl. The little girl who believes that people do have some good in them. I still believe that people are nice despite their actions and words. I still want to believe that; but reality isn't that kind nor forgiving.

Being able to pull myself up, being able to stand up after all that...
Still being able to smile.

Its all thanks to the people whom I've met, and the people who've taught me that sometimes, being smart isn't everything; being rich isn't everything. Being able to smile from your heart; THAT'S something. Being able to truly laugh from your heart. Being able to love, cry and share your experiences with people whom you love and cherish.

THAT'S how rich a person can get. Sure, without money you might not be able to survive. But to me, being rich means all of the above. Imagine that despite having all the money in the world but you can't smile at all.

That's tough.

Of course to SOME people *winks* They've already passed the sad period and have found happiness. Too bad the person whom I'm winking to doesn't read my blog xD

Ah well~ As a "wise" person told me, my past is my past. Its over. What's more important is what I become and how I handle whatever's coming up.

Lol.

Like my AIR topic T_T
And summatives T_T
And all sorts of crap T_T

LIKE MY MOCK OSCE!
AND PBL!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

Die. PBL and mock OSCE on monday t.t

24th September 2009

Not that its a bad thing whatsoever :p

So yea...

Happy Birthday Yee Wen -nee~

This one was from so long ago~
Aha. Take care~ =)
All the best! Hope you're fine and dandy there!

21st September 2009

1.10am xD

edit : I can't post a youtube video here unless I want to block out my cbox. Go google it urself :p The music video's kinda sweet~

You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift Official Music Video

After watching the official music video, " You Belong With Me" by Taylor Swift, my confidence has dropped to an all time low.

She's.

So.

Pretty.

=S

Ahahaha. Pei Li has a crisis now :p
Sigh. Some people are just born pretty xD

I sound vain now.

Better stop before I end up being bashed by crates of tomatoes.

To-mah-toes.

Toes.

xD

Ok, I'll stop now.

20th September 2009.

Soooo....remember the times when we used to...

1. Ask each other maths question but end up answering it ourselves?
2. You always asking me about simple maths calculation?
3. I mean, I used to hide behind you while playing with Sarah?
4. Go out along with Sarah to buy pao from the nearby shops under the rain?
5. Push the turn to go bathe to each other until Miss Lee came? And read comics while falling asleep xD
   
6. Watch Naruto and Yakitate after tuition?
7. Again, I used to teach you how to play on the piano? Haha. Two successful songs eh?
8. And thanks for reminding me, help me finish up my last minute art folio xD
9. Talk about random stuff xD *neopets* *pokemon* AHAHAHA.
10. be very very very afraid of Pui Man.

Looking back, I feel kinda sad that I used to be like that. Haha. But hey, its part of growing up ;D
I miss those times right now =(

But Dianne, we will never change =)

Thanks to you, I've become stronger and I can now stand up better for myself right now. It is THAT much change dear =)

So anyways.... Here I am to say...

I

Love

You!

=)

Hope you liked the short post. Sorry la, too tired to think and reflect. Haha. Reflect.

:x

Sorry.

xD

Take care dearie~ Sorry its a day late.

We're all missing you~

Its 2am btw =P
12th September 2009

Right. So I've decided its time to make a bucket list! :D
Lol. This idea might have contributed to the fact that I've always wanted to do a bucket list but have never bothered to or I'm just too darn lazy xD

My bucket list is going to include long term and short term goals.

Sooooo....I need help! Gimme ur suggestions. LOGICAL ones please. Nothing too disturbing either ;p

1. Study AT LEAST 3 hours per day
2. Go on a road trip with just friends
3. Bungee jumping!
4. Travel to Japan for spring
5. Go mountain climbing
6. Learn how to rollerblade
7. *private* ;p
8. Stop going onto facebook so much >_>
9. Go on a holiday at least once a year
10. Travel to Venice!
11. See all the wonders of the world
12. Aiya, travel around the world la ;p
13. Go on a soul searching trip
14. TAKE A PICTURE WITH P5. EVERYONE. Haha
15. On the topic of pictures, take a picture of the night sky. With stars!!
    
16. Watch the sun rise. Haha. I always fail to wake up
17. Finish all the storybooks that I've bought but are yet to be opened
18. *private*
19. Have a reunion party with my primary friends ;D
    
20. Look for my long lost friend ;(
21. Learn how to cook an extravagant dish :D *Maggi mee or eggs are NOT extravagant ;p*

That's all I can think of. I need...4 more? Haha. Planning to 25 to start with.
Suggestions suggestions~

And its a nice day to blog too.

9.9.2009

Hmmm...does this mean I'll need 99 things on my list? @.@

Too bad its only 7.04 pm now. =P Instead of 9.09pm

One particular sensitive issue has just been bugging me lately >.<

When will this end? ><

Ah...the craziness and madness has just begun t.t

My legs are aching, my back is aching, my head is aching...

And I still have PBL to do.
Elective form to submit.
VARIETY NIGHT TO PREPARE

AAAA! I FORGOT TO PREPARE MY QC BOARD! T_T

Shall just scribble stuff :p

9 days and counting.

2nd September 2009

Sometimes all we need to do is unwind and relax.
The collection of too much stress isn't that good for the body, mind and soul.

Had the most amusing nightmare ever. Dreamed of a tsunami >_>

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-


I just had the most relaxing holiday. Not exactly relaxing since I was hoping to catch up on my sleep during the past 3 days to no avail due to the constant traveling and my mum saying, " If you wanna sleep you might as well stay at home!".

During the long drives from west to south, and south to east, and east to west, it made me think.
Of course, added on with something I've been reading about choices and how it affects the future, it REALLY made me think.



Because, during the crossroads of my life, I had to take totally different paths. For example:

1. Should I skip the PTS thing? In the end, I chose to skip standard 4. But if I didn't, I wouldn't be able to meet all my lovely friends right now =) But imagine, your life without me...It will be either pretty peaceful...or pretty boring xD Please make me happy and say that it'd be pretty boring.
2. The next huge one was when I was about to enter secondary school. I actually put SMK Seri Petaling. My mum made me change it to SMK Seri Saujana. Haha. So Dianne, thank my mum xD If I went to SMKSP, I'd be with my primary school friends. But, not going to SMKSS would mean that I would never have made so many friends and the few special ones whom I call my sisters :D Tsing would have been a lonely girl and Mel would be...er...sitting under an apple tree. *K.K Chan inside joke* Haha!
   
3. Of course, I had actually persuaded Xiao Foong to change it to SMKSS. Imagine if she did. I might not be able to sit next to you at all Dianne. And as you've mentioned in your blog...Well, the rest is history ;D
4. The decision to change classes in form 4. If I did, I'd be extremely close and stuck and attached to Dianne and Sarah. But being away from Dianne meant that I had to stand up for myself. Of course, I had Steph to support me then :D She was whom I learnt how to be sarcastic from :p So, for those who knew me before that, they are either sad that I've changed so much, amused that I HAVE changed that much or are just simply speechless :p
5. Next would be what to do after SPM. A levels of course. But what if I were assigned to a different class? A class that isn't PM4? I wouldn't be able to meet all my whacky friends in college then :) To know that there are people like this. Haha. Hyped up like Vienna *cough E Li too *cough*, more sarcastic than me *cough Ca Men cough*, and everyone else :) Carr Men and I are kinda different afterall, despite sharing the same birthday, BUT we do share similarities every now and then :)
6. Wohoo...Next would have been either IMU or Monash. Wouldn't wanna mention any specifics here for fear of insulting various parties *cough IMU cough*

Welll....that's the main crossroads are mentioned here...

:p

Such an emo post ><

Shall now post an idiotic picture.

Don't laugh ya...

I SAID DON'T LAUGH!!

31st August 2009

I think I've scolded you 3 times d :p

YOU DIDN'T TELL ME YOUR FLIGHT HAS CHANGED TO A DAY EARLIER!!! T____T

Aaanyways, the stuff I wrote in the sms and mail are too mushy and private to be on this blog :p

So, take care :) I'll post a better blog post after my exams :)

Take care and all the best k? :D

27th August 2009

I read in a magazine today that we should always try and keep in touch with our friends; no matter how busy we are. For example, wake up maybe about an hour earlier and finish your stuff earlier so that you can spend time with your friend. It doesn't mean you need to meet up and hang out; it can just be a short sms or a phone call.

Really meaningful.

But you know how we are. We'd most probably think, " Oh, maybe he/she is having his/her exams now. Better not disturb".
Truth is, I'd rather be disturbed just for a moment. Because, that "disturbance" shows that my friend still cares.

Of course, I'm guilty for not doing that. Its always nice to hear from someone you THOUGHT has forgotten all about you. For example, Woan Yiing smsed me on my birthday. And I thought she forgot all about me. So touched now xD

It was just a simple sms saying "Happy Birthday" yet it meant a lot to me. Call me a fool but hey, lets just say I'm easily touched. Maybe its because of my upbringing or my past sad childhood :p

Yea, sad childhood. Soooo cliched xD

Aaanyways, I hope this post has given you a lot to think about. Gotta go rush my AIR topic now ><

26th August 2009

Today was a meet up with Tsing, Yee Wen, Yan Leng and Steph.

:D

Photos up when i'm free :p

Was a farewell thing for Yee Wen. First we went paobing!
But I think eating ice on an empty stomach is the worst thing to do. Since I only had a bun for lunch, my stomach didn't feel that good ><

Then we went for Yuan's steamboat :D
Of course, they took away the scallops :(
Sad d :(

But had fun eating the funny fish paste noodle thingi. But, my stomach still didn't feel too good. Even till now :(
See Yee Wen? ITS FOR YOUR SAKE. Now my stomach is suffering t.t

Moral of the story? EAT LUNCH. Haha. Don't eat ice when you haven't had lunch t.t

Also, Lai Mun called us in the middle of Yuan's. Durian ice-cream and cookies and cream! :D
:s And that's when my tummy didn't feel ok again ><

Funniest part is that Daniel and Tsing had a prawn shelling competition. NO HANDS. Haha. Will post the video in parts.

Fave quote of the day:
Which I heard from Tsing.

Lai Mun: Its easier to keep fat than keep fit.

There was one more but I forgot xD

Oh yea. There is. This one is courtesy of Yan Leng.

Apparently Lai Mun went island flipping xD
And Tsing will WORSHIP lai mun if she goes island hopping...I mean flipping, via swimming and survives. So Lai Mun? Tahulah apa nak buat.

Jokes aside, its time to bid another good friend adieu.

First I had to say bye to Mel.
Then Dianne.
And now Yee Wen :(

Of course, those who are still in Malaysia albeit on another island altogether doesn't count. So...sorry la Lai Mun and Tsing xD

Yea...So Yee Wen, a.k.a horse lover.
Take care and all the best :)
Sorry cuz I might not be able to send you off in the airport :(

Take care darling <3
:)

21st August 2009

It was a miscalculation on my part.

Now I will need to study, freak out and I can't join treasure hunt and track trip.

I feel like exploding, crying and just break out into a fight right now.

Anyone wanna go into a fist fight with me? Verbal fights are fine by me.

I just wanna give myself a reason to shout at somebody

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20th August 2009

1. You'll most probably die from stress before graduating.
2. Paracetemol a.k.a is your best friend
3. Besides your lecture notes, the library and anything that doesn't involve fun.
4. Oh, that includes the MMS too.
5. You'll suffer and worry constantly about your exams, PBL, CSU and your AIR topic all at once.
6. Worry about your electives which means that you'll need to be attached to a hospital for ONE MONTH.
7. Which is during your holidays btw.
8. Which also means you'll need to see your grouchy mentor which you've never seen since the dawn of time.
9. Which ALSO means you don't have any holidays at all.
10. BECAUSE your holidays are spent doing your elective.
11. Minus the fact you get a few measly days of holidays because of the CNY.
12. That you'll love Malaysia for its multiple public holidays since the yellow shaded boxes in your calendar marked "SCHOOL HOLIDAY" no longer applies to you.
13. That you'll wish that you stay near your uni cuz that will mean that you can wake up 5 minutes before anything and still be on time.
14. That you'll be eating unhealthily despite being a med student.
15. That you'll constantly see pictures of food being compared to different lesions and wounds.
16. That you'll miss your social and personal life all at once.
17. That you wish you can have someone to rant all your problems to.
18. That you will sometimes wonder, "Am I prepared to suffer for the rest of my life for my dreams?"
19. That you'll begin to re-evaluate your whole life's values.
20. That you'll type out 20 random things about what being a med student is like.

Haha. Of course, number 19 really applies to me. Re-evaluating your life values ain't easy. And its just a small step into the world of the 'adults'. Right now, I'm just an immature kid who's living in a life filled with adults and older people. =P

Growing up ain't easy. No one ever said it was. Maturing and growing up are two different things that are one. =(

Wish someone gave me a warning ><

17 August 2009

Do you put a freaking music video on blogger anyway???

A video from youtube I mean ><

Anyway, until someone tells me how, I'll just put the link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TfR7EHvX0_U

Our local music scene is really good =D

They're just unappreciated =(

16th August 2009

Next stop?

Study for my summative T.T

Added on with the celeb for Yee Wen's departure. But, Tsing and Lai Mun aren't here =(

Lolz. I've noticed that the size of gatherings with old friends are getting smaller in number.
Less people are around to disturb, I mean, hang out with.

But with new places and new experiences, comes with new people to disturb, I mean, hang out with. =D

For example...

In the library,

Its fun to disturb, I mean, study with people like Wolf who has a truck load of colour pens =D
And people like Aku when he looks so blur and sometimes you get to hear unbelievable stories of how he got locked out of his own car twice.
With Yi Wen, we can always tease Aku together =D

With E Li, you can always make fun of her. And just...study with her. Yes, study. What else can I do other than bullying, er, I mean, studying with her?

Then there's Esther, Guan Teck and Kevin. Tsk tsk. Guan teck is so easy to bully especially if Esther's around =P

So, by moving on, we get to meet new people. Experience the world, and overcome hardships along the way =)

Hardships are just a part of life. We confront it, and conquer it!

Summative? HERE I COME!

15th August 2009

This 101st is dedicated to Dianne.

As she's mentioned in her blog, this time, it really feels like she's leaving.
The previous time she was only gone for about half a year.

Now she's leaving for a good 2 whole years; which by then, I might be overseas.

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And she's leaving in approx. 1 hour + time. Its already 9.54pm.

This was us before you left the last time.

Sorry I couldn't send you off this time =(

Take care and all the best =)

Words are not needed amongst the best of friends~
quoted by Me.

Haha.

As proven by how we manage to win every pictionary ;D

Steph...apparently you need to spend more time with Sarah. Haha.

13th August 2009

Went out the whole day of both days.

Thanks for everything guys! I love you guys! =)

Thanks to the PM4-ians for the huge cake xD
It was almost spoilt to Carr Men when you guys walked past her but she's so blur anyway. Lala~

Thanks to Dianne, Sarah, Steph and Pui Man for taking time to watch me eat is Zenmai sushi. HAHA. While I slowly savour my food xD
And for playing pictionary. *Steph, remember coughing?*
And for playing that ridiculously hard and creepy boardgame. AND, thanks aunty, *sarah, if u're reading this, help me remind your mum once again* for making me the traitor.
And for staying up till 2am to finish the game.

Not to mention kicking me out to the balcony. Alone. At night. With only my plant and Tigger to keep me company =(

Lolz.

And that was on the 8th.

On the 9th, Jun Beng had a gathering for Dianne's farewell. Benjamin, Hong Kheng, and Sarah came along too.
We watched G.I Jones =)

Which was...okla...
The best part was to make fun of Jun Beng. Maybe it was a good thing Stephen wasn't there and Hong Kheng had to leave early.

Otherwise, Jun Beng might be teased so much he might be suicidal.

Carr Men, THERE'S your patient.

xD


Once again. THANKS SO MUCH GUYS!

Pictures will be uploaded when i'm not lazy xD

9.8.2009

I'm no longer the timid and quiet 'freak' that I was a few years ago.

Wow. Now whenever you mention that Pei Li used to be quiet, you'd get the ' What the heck are you talking about' look.

xD

Don't know if its a good thing or not >_>

3.8.09

Is the question that Li Zhen typed.

That question strikes deep in me, as I too wonder...

What DOES love mean?

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CSU tomorrow at 10.30am =(
Having breakfast with Sarah at 8!

Since Dianne, Steph and Pui Man FFK-ed us =(

YOU OWE US FOOD!!! D=
Especially Milo, eggs and toast~

Yum....

I'm hungry =(

And its only 11.52pm on the 2nd of August 2009

=(

Haha.

To diss all robbers --"

This week was the most cheh one ever --"

I lost 100 bucks, and my bro got his whole bag stolen. In it, there's his handphone.

..................................................................................................

Sigh.

What has the world come to --"

2nd August 2009

This year, we've said goodbye to two great icons.

The first was Michael Jackson.
Well, eventhough everyone said he's a little...eccentric and stuff, nobody can deny he was great at his prime.

And his prime was during my childhood.

May he rest in peace despite the recent controversy over his death regarding the drugs given to him.

The next was Yasmin Ahmad.
She was one of Malaysia's greatest icons, producing touching advertisements and movies alike.
When I was young, I used to look forward to her commercials during the festive seasons. Her commercials were so thought provoking and touching that it really was a treat to watch it.

Of course I must admit I have not watched the past 1-2 years due to the fact Astro rarely screens it and I must add that I greatly regret that. At least I can still watch it on youtube.

But it looks like right now that may not be possible in the future...

May she rest in peace too....

30th July 2009

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!

It all started when I stupidly left my wallet in the library by accident. After lectures, Li Zhen, Aku and I were supposed to meet up with B-comfort over the orientation T-shirts.

It was handed over to the admin department but when I got it back I lost 100 dollars with it =(
THEN, we had to get stuck in a ridiculously long jam on the way home for about and hour plus; reaching IMU at about 7++, nearly 8.

THEN, the ticket thing in the basement said I didn't pay when I paid 9 FREAKING DOLLARS.

Then the guards were trying to decide if I was lying or not and I waited till 8pm for them to come to a conclusion that I wasn't trying to trick IMU of its overpriced 9 dollars.

--"

So many things to complain, but it sounds so unfair that I'm here complaining when other people might have it worse =(

So if you've just had a worse day than me I'm sorry I'm complaining.

Just need to let loose some steam right now ><

Sob sob. My money T______T

Now I'll need to diet for quite some time.

27th July 2009

ITS FRIDAY!!! =D

I'M HIGH!! =D

On...lack of sleep >_>

its 12.12am. Haha.

And to prove that i'm random..

I MISSED THE FREAKING SOLAR ECLIPSE! WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

I ALSO MISSED THE BON ODORI!!!

WTH WTH WTH WTH!!

T________________T

Some1 cheer me up with ice cream =(

Cuz i'm officially depressed =(

Hint: I like cookies and creams =D

24th July 2009

Going to be a crazy week for me. Haha.

Rushed to IMU today for my PBL @_@
Worst part was that the printer was...i dunno. Ask the two girls in front of me crowding the printer while I was already late for PBL. Ended up being mute throughout the whole thing.

Lectures started late as the Orientation committee were recording footage for the whole thing. And as I ran down to pay my parking, it was already 2 minutes over the hour!! GAH. Had to pay an extra dollar since I was too lazy to walk up already by then.

I have CSU tomorrow. Keeping my fingers crossed for a nice doctor T_T
Horrible tales have been told. Haha. Also, I need to hand in my report by tomorrow T_T

AAAAAnddd...I'm still lazy. haha. Still need to locate time to study too T_T

Sob. And its only CVS!!! What with the diff conditons of heart attacks and drugs. I'm amazed my brain can remember so much stuff.

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
So many things to do, so little time.

Sigh.

On a side note, I'm currently high on chocolate :D

CHOCO GOOODDDD =D

On another happy note...I have all the Reborn! starting and ending themes!! BWAHAHAHAHAHA!
TAKE THAT!

Hmmm..now which anime should I choose to get all the songs? xD
I was thinking of Nodame. The songs are really nice =D

But I want songs that are non emo-ish. Sheesh. Just when I was on a happy high on chocolate, all my emo songs kinda drooped my mood a little.

People! Please give or intro more upbeat songs to me! Haha. I have so many emo songs that anyone whom is suicidal would have already comitted suicide already.

21st July 2009

Throughout my whole entire life, I have already said goodbye to a person.

And I've always hoped that it'd be the last goodbye I'd ever say.

She was always kind to me, always giving me an extra smile.
Encouraging me to talk in front of her when I was feeling shy.
Giving me presents knowing how few I used to get back then.

We weren't well off, but we were thriving.

Then, I had to say goodbye.
I was so young I didn't understand it back then. Now, I do.

I only wish that I could see you now, and show you how big I've grown up to be.
Show you how tall my brother is right now despite the age gap.

To show you that I can speak measly hokkien.

To tell you that the reason I stopped playing the piano is because I have no audience to listen to me play.

To tell you that it has always been my childhood dream to learn every main component of the musical instruments.
One string, one brass, one woodwind and one percussion.

Which means, I've always wanted to at least learn how to play, a violin, a trumpet, a flute and a harp.

And so far, I have yet to learn it nor express my wish to learn it to my family. How would they react? Would they think that I'm already taking things for granted? These instruments don't come cheap afterall.

To tell you that one of my other childhood dreams is to be athletic. It will never happen. My stamina is as bad as an obese sloth.

But I digress.

Don't really know what to say anymore. But...many things have changed back home.

Always take care of yourself.

With love,

PeiLi

The debate on whether should science and maths be taught in english is out.

They're reverting back to BM again --"

For us who are no longer in school, it might not affect us in any other way.

HOWEVER, give a thought to my brother who will learn all the sciences in MALAY after being taught all of it in english since his primary school.

Not only will this change be USELESS, its also cumbersome and troublesome.

He'll need to study it in ENGLISH anyway once he graduates high school.

http://chedet.co.cc/chedetblog/

People, go there and VOTE.

Or alternatively,

www.pagemalaysia.blogspot.com

C'mon people, do your part and voice out your concerns. WE DO NOT NEED THIS CHANGE AT ALL.

Am I pissed? HELL YEAH!

Of course the pics are just mainly recycled ones ><

I miss you already Mel =(

You too lai mun and Tsing =(

Waaaaaaaa!

I shall now attempt to be not funny and upload a hilariously ridiculous picture that will make your day.

*Truth is I can't find the pics anymore but you guys didn't hear that*



Presenting.........


THE KING~~

=D

...........................

Ok that wasn't funny.
Haha.

><

Sorry. PBL's getting to my head.

I'd like to wish....

MelC a belated happy birthday...

Pui Man a belated happy birthday...

And

Shyh Min a happy birthday!

At least I didn't miss out on ONE bday T.T

Enjoy my beautiful penguin picture taken in Maldives =D

I'm sure my penguin enjoys and loves the attention *winks*

EEEEEP!!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MEL!!! T.T

I totally forgot to post one when i reached home that day T.T

And my internet has been PMS-ing on me T.T

SORRY MEL! T.T

Srysrysrysrysrysry.

I'll make it up to you. Tea on me when we next meet =D
Or would you prefer if I try mail loads of maggi mee to you? xD

I'm so sry T.T
And since my internet is slow again, pics up later T.T

Also...

Happy belated birthday Pui Man!
Its already 1.21am on the 12th of july >_>

And i dun have ur phone number =S
That's two birthdays i've forgotten T.T

Here's a birthday wish for my friend Carol =)
Er...dun think she knows my blog. Haha. We've been friends since standard 1 and it was thanks to her family for renting her house to my family when my Shah Alam house flooded a long long time ago. I even have pictures of me taken in her house. Haha.

Happy 19th birthday girl!

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I never knew how much my car was so unappreciated until now.
Its better than no car =\
And all this time I was complaining about its size, weight and power! I'm sorry my dear baby =(

My baby has a huge dent and a large slit of a crack all due to my misjudging the distance =(
Not to mention the god knows where did I get it scratches.

AND ALSO BECAUSE OF MY MUM AND DAD DRIVING IT LIKE THEY DON'T CARE, THE FRONT BUMPER HAS A COLLECTION OF SCRATCHES!

SDHADHADHAVBQUH12U3Y283719878787*&*&*@^&#%!*&

Now that my dad's car is in ICU, I have no car to drive and am stuck in the freezing cold IMU till 7pm --"

That's why I feel so tired =(

>< Oh well. Once my baby's back, i'm going to give it some loving by refilling the wiper fluid. Haha.

Hey, I show my love in different ways.

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I have 3 things to talk about today. First was about Carol's birthday, 2nd was about my car and 3rd about what Sarah and I discussed via sms today.

It started about us talking being drunk. Haha. Then, on about how words can really hurt people. I won't deny the fact that I have hurt people with my insensitive thoughts. I take the chance here to say....

I'm sorry.

If i've offended u or made u sad in any way. If I said it full of malice, i'm sorry =(
I've always told myself to never be petty or mean with my words so if I have i'm absolutely sorry =(
I believe I am a mean person. Hehe. Trust me. If you've hurt me, intentionally or unintensionally, or the people that I love, you're going to be at the receiving end of all mean thoughts.
Any jerk or bitch that ever talks bad about anyone I care about is going to be prepared with how I treat them from now on.

Trust me. When I say it, I mean it. Well, unless if you OBVIOUSLY know i'm joking la...

Back to words that can harm. I've said it to....quite a few people...
But you can never take back what you've said. I've regretted saying things that cannot be taken back to 3 people.

My mum.
My bro

and....

one more person out there.

I always apologize to my mum and my bro knows I PMS all of a sudden although he doesn't know the cause =P

But to that other person out there, I know you don't read my blog at all. Just wish I had the guts to ask and say...." Can we at least be friends again now?"

I've always wanted to just send a sms saying that but I'm just too chicken ><

So don't be like me. Or at least learn from your mistakes. Don't ever say anything that you know will not be able to repair that relationship.

Its not worth it.

9.7.09

Eep! Having tachycardia now with abnormal sinus rhythm and probably with irregular heartbeat with a high preload and low afterload.

xD

Speaking rubbish there. Don't mind me.

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*sigh* I need to go on a soul-searching trip ASAP.

Need to search for my soul. Haha. T.T

FAHFJIAFJ faofJOJDO!JO@J#R$!#($VDASH#RQ#)!Q

Brain dead X.X

Can you spell the word stress? =X
No, it wasn't a trick question. *sigh*

Friday was... ^^ Aha! Good news yo! I did it! The past one month was like hell for me... 2 weeks of waiting took its toll on my patience so sorry if I was a little jumpy, snappy and moody. I was stressed beyond reason at that time.

Of course, now a whole different kind of stress is setting in. Cardio is getting a little tricky for me. What with PBL's, CSU and clinical visits, i'm having a tough time. Added on with the T-shirts for orientation, its really taking up all of my time.

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
Oh well, enough ranting. Just needed an outlet to let out some steam =X
Now I have mosquito bites all over my feet, the worst place to get bitten T.T

So yea....I was thinking of changing my whole layout to a brighter colour. Black looks so emo-ish and gloomy. I was thinking sky blue! Going to finish up the banner when I actually have the time. Haha. It has rainbows and i'm personally photoshopping it all the way. Abstract too! =D

Sigh >< I need more ideas for the senior T-shirt. It looks too plain. And credit goes to Li Zhen and Li Hoong too. Good job guys! =D

Mao mao mao mao mao.

Swaaaay~

I need a holiday =(
I also wanna go on a soul-searching trip like Vienna =(

Vienna, don't let people influence your decision. I salute you! Stay strong girl!

And to Tsing and Lai Mun, how are you guys doing over at Sabah? Eating lots of seafood? xD
Good luck to everyone who was accepted at different universities. I know you guys can do it! =)

6.7.09

I think i'm a hypocrite.

I have so many different faces that you wouldn't be able to tell who I really am. Like now...

Part of me really wants this to work out...
Part of me doesn't so that I may go on with life...
Part of me wishes and yearns for a whole different life...
Part of me wishes that I may have both...

Tomorrow will decide everything. The way I will live my life and the way I shall be.

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Emo post again xD
Shall be known as the emo-er from now on.

ECG again T.T Who knew that our heart is so complicated? In the literal sense.
Gotta go finish up PBL. And....pray hard.

2.7.09

No more emo post. Sorry about the previous hate/ emo post. And no Ting yu. That didn't help.
Gah, still doesn't help when there's so much ECG to learn about.

Zzzzz..

I'm going to dream about ECG graphs soon enough.

I'm here to say, sorry Yee Wen! I didn't go for your event with very good reasons.

><

I planned to go on Sunday actually. So, I didn't go on Saturday. Also, sorry to Tsing and Sean. I missed your performance =(

But you see, I had a 10km run on Sunday and was planning to go after that.
BUT....I just had no more stamina after that =(

SRYSRYSRYSRYSRYSRYSRYSRY! =(

Please don't kill me T.T

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On Sunday, I went for my 10km run without any preparation whatsoever. No previous training which was oh so long ago.

It was hell.

I managed to jogged for the first....er....5 minutes? xD
Slowly after that, people started overtaking me. With very weird looks --"
Everytime I overtook people they would try and overtake me --"

Seriously people. Must you be SO kiasu even in a 10km race??? I would understand if you wanted to WIN the prize money but...

If you wanted to win, shouldn't you be in the front? Not at the back with me? --"

This is a race with yourself. NOT with other people. There were many times along the way when I wanted to just sit at the rest stations and tell them, ' I GIVE UP'.

But hey...what's the point in that huh?
There were SUPPOSED to be four water stations. There were only three.

JUST WHEN I WAS FREAKING THIRSTY....At the THIRD and LAST water station....

THEY FREAKING RAN OUT OF WATER --"

Try and rub it in that i'm last why don't you?

It was a great experience although I did feel a little lonely =(
Sure its a race against yourself but you can't help but feeling a little lonely along that 2hours 18minutes race. Everyone was chatting happily and enjoying myself.

I was just FORCING myself to go on ahead with nobody to push me.
I know that sometimes, you just need to be by yourself. You just need to be independent.

But i'm the kind of person who needs someone to push me. Haha. Not literally. Like, during exams, during a run... ><"

I'm a failure of a human. Ahaha.
But this run has taught me to push myself beyond my normal limits. Of course...the effects of that is beginning to show in the way I walk. =P

That being said, I guess I wouldn't mind going for another 10km one =)

WHEN someone I know will be with me all the way is there. Not necessarily physically.

Gah, rambling again. Gotta go grab some breakfast and head over for classes T.T

30th June 2009

Right people, remember...Animangaki is on tomorrow! =D

Tomorrow and Sunday that is. So...move your butts over and gogogo! You'll get a door gift courtesy of Animax! Its a really cool bag, file, a hat and some other stuff. I Saw it with my own eyes! Also, there'll be a lucky draw! Winner gets to take back a gundam set...Its worth a lot... xD

No seriously...Even if you don't like it...Its totally ok! Hard core fans will be approaching you JUST to buy it off you! Best part is...you can totally set the price. =D

So...think of this as a business oppotunity *winks*

You can also vote for your fave cosplayer on that event. There'll be doujins up for sale too. Picture the comic fiesta in Times square. Only, on a slightly smaller scale. But the same amount of fun!

So go for it! You won't regret it.

Forgot to mention, you can also buy the japanese style windchime! There will also be the game where you scoop the fish out of the water. Haha. Like those in Japan!
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Right.
This time...its Tsing's party! Before she...heads over to Sabah to enjoy her cup noodles and seafood. Please don't kill me Tsing.

Yea...Anyways...

Date : 27th June 2009
Time: 8.30pm [see? It doesn't clash with yee wen's! SO GO FOR BOTH =D]
Venue : Her house. Lol
Food : BBQ i think.
DRESS CODE : Fictional character.

Why did i emphasise on the word dress code? Well...lets just say if you potong steam and go as you are she wouldn't even think of letting you in.

The end.

Haha. So...Steph's going as Jason Mraz, Yee Wen's going as the butt of the unicorn to be the butt of the joke *OI YOU ASSES!* [inside joke], Tsing's going to be the head of the unicorn *Where did my ass go?* [ another inside joke] while....me? XD

Er....I MEAN... Yee Wen's going as...a....whole unicorn. I think, while Tsing's going as a leprechaun!

So yea...be there! Or be square...

If you wanna know WHAT i dressed up as...GO! =D Of course...this announcement only applies to people who KNOW tsing =)

Right....to all anime fans out there!!!! =D REJOICE!!!!
Well, even if you're not an anime fan, you can just go for the fun fun fun!

Aaaaanyways, Sing Yee Wen, a.k.a Kaichou of the Sun U- Anime club is proud to present..

Sun-U AniManGaki 2009

The event will be held on both 27th-28th of June 2009 in the Sunway University Multi Purpose Hall.

There are loads of exciting events to be held!

For example, there will be a mini omatsuri! Er, mini japanese festival. Complete with cosplays and karaokes. There will also be an anime movie screening and live j-pop performances!

Admission fee is RM12 for both days, and RM 8 for 1 day. Cosplayers get to enter at only RM5!

Do you love singing in the shower? Haha. There will be a karaoke competition! So, blow your lungs out and sing to your heart's content.


So what are you waiting for?

Be there, or be square ;)

Or...if you're too lazy to read...then visit

http://www.suac.x-tenshi.com

While eating lunch today, I came across a documentary on channel 553 on the spanish influenza that raged the world as a pandemic. What was unique about this virus, as documented, was the fact that it killed millions of healthy people before coming to a stop because everyone infected was either dead or immune.

All because of one virus, millions of people died.

Now for a little scientific tidbit =)

Influenza viruses are scary because they can mutate to form more virulent and deadly strains.
Human viruses are just that, but the most dangerous ones are avian and swine flu. As it is...you know, more avian and swine, our body's immune system just can't mount such a huge immune response against it that fast; which makes it dangerous.

Now...usually avian or swine flu doesn't 'jump' hosts. You know, they usually stick to either birds, or pigs. BUT, should the flu be able to 'jump' to humans, then....

Well...you've seen it. Both the H1N1 and the recent swine flu are causing pandemics. Well, the H1N1 CAUSED a pandemic. The ironic part was what the documentary mentioned. The documentary must have been created after the H1N1 outbreak, but before the recent swine flu outbreak. Because at that time, they were slowly revealing the spanish influenza virus's identity, they mentioned that scientists should quickly identify it to prevent another H1N1 outbreak.

Heh. Bet those people must be squirming in their pants now. It came true! The Spanish influenza virus showed that it was a pure swine flu virus.

And Asia was the perfect spot for a deadly pandemic to start. Only in Asia do you get both chickens and pigs living in close proximity. Especially the 'kampung' areas. The pig serves as a 'mixing' vessel. It has the capability to mix both avian and human flu viruses, causing a new strain. Imagine....an avian, swine and human flu. A cocktail of doom.

Ironic? =\

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Gah, that being said, it sounds kinda depressing for Mother Nature now.
What with the recent El Niño, haze, global warming, decreasing areas for dumping rubbish, lack of water and recession....

><

The future generation always suffer huh? I demand the time when I could still go out and play without fear of skin cancer, I wanna go out and play without having to be so paranoid and cautious all the time, I wanna go back to the time when I could just switch on the fan and speed 1 and still feel cool.

Life is full of challenges. What separates us from the rest is how we deal with these challenges. You either stand tall and continue climbing, or just stay down...defeated.

My head's telling me to stand tall and continue climbing. But my heart wants to just let it all go and travel around the world.

I've always wanted to travel around the world. I wish I could make a living out of it. NOT by being a tour guide, but free to go wherever and whenever I want.

*sigh*

Oh well, back to studying.
I really love Amazing Grace and Ave Maria btw. Its so soothing and calming =)

16.6.2009

Throughout my whole time studying, there's always a time for a break ;)

Haha. So, i spend my time reading and watching One Piece! =D
Really nice. The underlying friendship theme is really nice. Touching at times and so funny =)

The arc that really touched me the most was when they had to save a princess's country. Also, the arc where they had to retrieve their kidnapped shipmate =')

Well....that being said I've nothing more to add. Haha. I really have no idea what to blog about during my free time nowadays. Oh well. You could say I have blogger's block? xD

edit: Just changed the song =D This song is nice.... Was influenced by my bro. =P

My laptop is ALIIIIIIVE! =D
My poor baby was in ICU last month to get a heart transplant. The cause?

A fried motherboard. You know...laptop...motherboard? Yea...at least all the data is still here. *phew*

That's all I wanna say. This post is just to show that my laptop is up and alive and to stop ting yu from asking me to update.

P.S. Ting yu, go ask E Li to update. Not me.

=D

Kindly ignore the previous post. Too emo and...too self destructive. I'll remove it when my internet is faster.

Anyway...I sneaked online just to say...Thanks for all the support guys =)

Right...gotta study now then >< 

I would like to also thank E Li for purposely coming all the way to IMU to study with me. Without her, I'd have just emo-ed the whole day =P Finally changed my song! Its a nice song too! 

Enjoy =)

Thinking back, I was a big idiot then. What the heck was I thinking?

Here's another hurdle I must now overcome....

I look so weak...so vunerable...any soothing words or piercing words can now hurt me. I don't care about physical pain but emotional and mental pain is way worse.

But too late to think about that now. Its time...to look ahead and at the huge crossroad in front of me. Its the turning point of my life.

I'm so afraid...so afraid that I wish I could just break down and cry; cry my heart and lungs out.


But that would be so not me.


Its time to be strong...time to stand up on my own two feet and stop depending on people so much. Its time to stop dwelling in the past and gear myself up for this challenge. Its time to give myself a big tight slap and a pinch to clear the haze and to open my eyes wide.


Its time...to sit down and carefully evaluate.
This time, nobody can save me but....me.

Time for a late post xD
This one happened on Sunday btw.

My mum, bro and I went to the Big Bad Wolf Book Warehouse Sale! =D
Damn syiok lo! Haha. I managed to buy a few old nice looking books and a few current books. For example...

I bought an Inkdeath book for 15 bucks! HAHA! *must rub it in Yee Wen's face*
But for 15 bucks there must be a downside rite....

The cover was the movie version and it was a 3 in 1 kinda book. Oh well. My mum said it was only 15 bucks. The story is funnier...

I was browsing thru a whole heap of books and this girl was holding on it. I was already eying so I just pretended to browse somemore. I overheard the conversation between her and her mum.

M: "Aren't you going to buy this book?"
G: But I already have the first 2 books...
M: The choice is yours

To my glee, she decided not to buy and like a shark, I grabbed it! *Rejoices*
And it was the last book too! D= According to my mum, a lot of people were trying to take the book too...We left it in a box which was provided and my mum was looking after it while my bro and I were like little kids in a candy store xD Sorry Tsing, I was trying to look for one for you too =\ And I found some house book. Dunno if Yee Wen wants it. Do you? The cover is bent though. It was the best copy I could find. Tell me if you want it k? =)

Managed to buy a few Asterix books too! Pretty cheap. 12 bucks for 1, and you'd normally buy it for 70 bucks in MPH! Haha! Again, the cover and pages were in a pretty ok-ok state. A few bents here and there but hey, beggars can't be choosers right?

Of course, there were also plenty of sudoku books! Ah...I was in heaven that day....

Mum was looking for the Da Vinci code but couldn't find it. Maybe i'll buy it for her birthday or something...

In the end, we managed to amass an impresive collection of books, me having the most of course. *evil grin*
Then when we were done, we had to sort out which one we didn't want. Of course...I felt bad for buying so many so I had to remove a few =(
What really irked me was that some volumes, trilogies, chornicles or whatever were incomplete so I had to leave that behind because the books were kinda old and I doubt I could find it in other bookstores anymore anyway T.T

We spent about...4-5 hours there. Haha. The amount was 300 bucks for a whole lot of books with a 10% discount for OCBC members. OCBC is awesome like that xD Mum even joked and asked us to buy another 2-3 more books.

We ended our hot day with a nice, COLD and refreshing ice-cream! I bought the orange lolly. You know, the ones we used to buy when we were young. The orange ice one. Brings back memories...=)

When we reached home, all my books fitted into one box, my mum's was about 3/4 of a box and my bro...just bought 5. Haha. There were a few books where he and I wanted it so okla...he had about 10 KUA xD

So...ends my book sale experience. Can you please drop me a word of any upcoming warehouse book sale? I managed to find one so far. Its on from the 15th till the 24th.

Does anyone know where this place is?

Dewan Serbaguna MBPJ,
Jalan BU 3/1,
Bandar Utama,
Petaling Jaya, Selangor

Its the location. Open from 10am till 9pm

If you can't see the poster, go to this website

Crescent's warehouse sale

Please tell me if you know the way ya? Thanks! =)

Met up with Lai Mun, Tsing, Steph, Yan Leng and Yee Wen for dinner at IOI in TGI's today.

And we learned a few new words today, courtesy of Steph and Yee Wen.

1. Awesome
2. Pokok
3. Flipping

See the awesomeness of the word awesome? You can use it to describe so many things with that one word?

"How was your day?" Awesome.
"How is the food? " Awesome.
"You having fun?" I'm having the most awesome day

Or something along those lines.
Haha. POKOK on the other hand....can be used as a bad word. What started as an 'innocent' conversation in Popular ended up with this.

YW: What the fish?
Tsing: Eh dun la. It sounds too much like F.
Yw:....K la. What the salmon?
Everyone: --"
Yw: What the giraffe?
Everyone: --"
Yw: Fine! No more animals. I'll use trees.
Tsing: So now u're gonna say what the tree?
Yw: No...What the pokok!

And that's when we started insulting each other using the word pokok.

Grammar 101 on the word pokok! Just replace it with any bad word you know.

Wtf can be said as what the pokok. See? Not as vulgar.
Wth too can be substituted.
Bloody (name) can be said was Pokok (name). Doesn't sound too right... But!
Freaking (name) CAN be said as Pokoking (name)

Example....lets give you a sample situation which happened to me when I was trying to call A CERTAIN SOMEONE. *cough* Steph and Tsing *cough*

Pl: *hp trying to get thru*
(Tsing SLAMS MY PHONE! D=)
Pl to Yw: That pokok-ing Tsing slam my call!!!!
Yw: *LOLS in the background*

And before we left,
Yw: Good bye pokoks!
Steph: Shut up. I'm too awesome to be a pokok you pokok.

Pl + Yw : Bye pokoks!! =D

Ahahahahahaha. So now you know you can insult ppl as pokoks and use the word awesome all the time! =D HOW COOL IS THAT!

May this post be of use to u. xD Before I leave, I would like to show you a pokok-ing picture.

TGI Friday's dessert. Looks kinda small.

Sorry. Lai Mun, Yan Leng and Yee Wen too shy. I had to persuade Tsing and Steph before they posed.

ahahahaha. The toilet sign. Note the finger? xD

Simple minds are easily amused. If you see properly....

There are no walls on both side! Its just a door in the middle of nowhere. xD

Hope you enjoyed this educational post.

Oh gosh... SAQ was baaaaaaad. Left two whole questions empty. Pharmaco really killed me then.

I've also figured out something...
Eventhough I studied it, I can't apply it. For example:

"What's the difference between adult haemoglobin and fetal haemoglobin?"
The chains that comprise it. Fetal is alpha gamma I think, while adult is alpha beta. But during my exams....it never crossed my mind.

So yea...the resit is harder than the original exam... Trying to sound optimistic now but I also have to be realistic. This means...

Studying right after my exams are over, in order to prepare myself for the resit.

And since the resit it tougher, failing it means bye bye med school.

Should I consider what other options can I lead my life now?

What if I fail?

How do I face my parents?

How do I face...

Everyone?

There's no such thing as a life without obstacles. As Wen Peng typed in his status, What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

My next obstacle just might be the death of me yet.

No time to think, just time to give it my all while dealing with my noisy surroundings. Stress is already affecting me badly as it is.

I might end up looking like crap on Monday.

Added on with the uncertainty of my future now, the stress is really beginning to pile up.

My friends always say...

" Don't worry, you're smart! You can pull through!"
" Don't worry....just try your best!"
" Haiya, don't lie! You're so good, you can do it!"
" You can do it! Just believe in yourself and you can do it!"

Don't make me laugh...

Truth is...you guys put too much confidence in me.

I'm not smart; merely average.
Not only that, I'm lazy.

My brain has never studied hard since PMR, which contributes to my bad grades since then.
I will never put in enough effort without encouragement; which unfortunately for me, has left me since form 4.

My encouragement was to be the best then. To be the best. I was THAT arrogant. Then...that reason just left me altogether when we were separated.

From then on, I never worked hard to achieve anything. I was just too lazy to think.
What's the point of a brain if I don't use it?

Now, my brain needs a lot more to jump start. Right now...its too late.
It'll never happen anymore. I won't be able to see it.

I feel so lost. For the first time in my life... I feel like i'm looking at a huge crossroad. I walked down a path few would have traveled...

And regretted it. I regret my decision and its too late to pull out now. Out of sheer arrogance...I'm beginning to fall...

And i'm going to keep falling until I land...hard... Smack right into reality.

What should I do then?

I need a savior to pull me out from this hell pit i've dug around myself now. I feel so...

Hopeless.

Was going through all our old photos yesterday; my bro was doing his sejarah folio. You know...the one where we needed to do about our family in form 1? HAHA!
Funny part was, he doesn't know WHAT to write about. And I kept reminding him,

Me : " You know...if it wasn't for the fact you took apart my folio last time, it could help you now..."
Bro : "WHAT WAS I THINKING? CURSE YOU ITCHY HANDS!!!"

Haha. Joker la that fella. And we were laughing so much at our own pictures! xD
I just can't believe how horrible I looked as I grew older >_>

I kinda miss the old cameras with the old fashion film. My mum once said that, at least you have the pictures with you once you washed it and can rewash it over and over again. But with digital cameras, once the data is deleted, Poof! Your pictures are gone. Oh yea =( So many pictures have fallen prey to the viruses which have infected my computer =(

So...to entertain your minds off of studying, (or permanently fry it due to the....graphical pictures you're about to see...) allow me to bring you down memory lane and see me! =D
I sound like a narcissist...

That's me when I was a year old. Well...you can see the date. I have another one which shows me KISSING the floor. Haha! Didn't scan it though.

Why am I embarassing myself again?

This is the lake garden place =) I soooo wanna go back there after my exams...maybe i'll persuade my parents....*evil plan already forming*

I can barely remember this picture though. I THINK I remember these people in the pictures. I also THINK I've visited them few years back. Thing is, as kids, we tend to make more friends. But now, as the oh so reserved and dignified teens that we are, it'd be uncool to make friends that easily huh? =P
No, I don't know the guy next to me now.


Last pic before I go off. This isn't me. Its my bro. Haha! He's sooo adorable!...
Of course, once you've compared it with THIS picture...

Eeeeewwww.....Of course, I heard there are a lot of girls going after him.....


Hmmmm....isit time to be that 'overprotective sister' and interview all the girls first? Not just any other girl wei... Obviously not from his school since he's from St. John's...

O.o.....

Unless....

... ...
... ...
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NAH. Couldn't be. =P

xD Mean I am....

7.5.2009

Happy birthday Ca Men!
Albeit belated... Sowie >< I was busy studying the whole day yesterday. Below are pictures for everyone's amusement xD

'Watcha looking at huh?'
Gosh...this pic felt like so long ago didn't it?

So 'kan lek' ho?
'Em ho la. Mou ah!!'

Ok that sound wrong... xD

Now for a good nice pic of her.
Haha. Sorry if my smile looks so 'kaku'.

Happy belated birthday ya? Hope you had a good day! =)

2.5.09